We are both a mess (an Ed Sheeran fanfiction)

Chapter 4

His hands were on my lower back caressing my sking softly with his fingers. I could feel his breath around my neck, his beard stroking my chin while I tangled my hand in his hair. We were so close I could even notice his erection and that was driving me totally crazy.

Suddenly, disconcerted, I woke up of my short but intense nap. What the fuck? Why? How? That wasn’t okay. It was 6.30pm and I had to start getting ready. I was going to meet Ed, again, at Nando’s. We had been talking a lot the past four days. He told me he was almost recovered and probably he would leave the center soon. In those four  days I started looking for a job since I need to do something with my life before I could apply to uni again.

I decided to wear an informal dress and a coat that night as it wasn’t too cold outside and of course my favorite  shoes.  I put some mascara, blush and lip balm and finally  grabbed a taxi to go to Berners Street. He was already waiting for me outside the restaurant.  He was wearing a red t-shirt with a black sweater and jeans and  was smoking while checking his phone. Oh god. He was holding the cigarette between his lips and smiled at me when he saw me.

-Hi! I’m sorry to have kept you waiting.

-Don’t worry, it’s ok. – We got into the restaurant and waited till a waiter came and took us to a free table.

It was my first time at Nando’s and that meant that I had to trust Ed on what to ask for dinner. For some reason I don’t usually feel comfortable at new restaurants. But he had told me he went there every Saturday so it must be good.

-What do you recommend me to have dinner, sir?

- I would choose Chicken breast fillet wrap for you, I think you will like it, lady.

We started talking about silly things after ordering our dinner  and I couldn’t just stop thinking about the dream I had that afternoon. I was ashamed but of course I couldn’t tell him about that, it was going to be a secret. Forever.

-You know what? I’ve  found out that writing and playing the guitar helps me a lot.

-I didn’t know you know how to play the guitar! You didn’t tell me about that.-I imagined how it would be he playing the guitar while holding a cigarette between his lips. Stop it. Stop it.

-Well there’s a lot of things you don’t know about me, actually.

-Yeah, you’re right. You know what? One of my friends plays tonight at a pub which is over here. We could go there and listen to some of his music.

-I didn’t know you had such cool friends.

-There’s a lot of things you don’t know about me. –I smirked at him and started eating. In some point I was right, he didn’t know almost anything about me. Nothing.

-That would be a nice plan.

After finishing , he invited me to the dinner and so I got little bit mad at him. I didn’t like when people invite me, sometimes is just awkward. Yes, I was weird. When we got in the pub before he had time, I ordered for two beers paying them.

-This is because of the dinner. Cheers. –I said while holding the beer and smiling.

-Cheers and  by the way, I don’t want to be an asshole but you haven’t told me about your problem.

-I will…just give me some time or some more beers. –he started laughing and asked for two more beers.

I couldn’t avoid looking at him while he was watching my friend performing. He was really enjoying it and that made me happy. I just closed my eyes, concentrating on listening to the lyrics of the song, which was about two people who fell in love at first sight. I could felt again the peace he transmitted me and it felt so good.