Memory

Chapter 15

BUCKY'S POV
I watched as Nat kneeled down next to Y/N. I breathed a small sigh of relief as I watched her. Just then I saw a burst of light hit where Y/N was and it shot Natasha away from her. I then saw that Tony was walking over to her. 
“Tony has Y/N.” I whispered. 
“What?” Steve asked. 
“Tony got to Y/N!” I yelled. 
“Buck we can’t turn back.” Steve told me. I then watched as Y/N climbed on top of Tony and those veins I saw earlier, went all the way up her arm. I then saw Tony hit Y/N and sent her flying back through the back of the building. 
“NO!” I screamed. “Steve we have to go back!”
“Bucky we can’t, I know you want to but we can’t! You know what we have to do.” Steve said. I punched the wall of the jet and then sat down in my seat with my head in my hands. It was quiet for a very long time. 
“Bucky...I’m sorry...but you know what would have happened if we landed the jet.” Steve said. I know he was right but, I also knew that this is all my fault. I couldn’t not blame myself. I was beating myself up about it. She could be dead. Hell, she probably is dead. All because of me. 
“I saw you kissed her back there.” Steve spoke up. 
“Yeah…” I said. 
“What was that all about?” He asked, smirking. 
“I don’t want to talk about it..” I said. 
“Bucky she’s gonna be fine.” He told me. 
“How do you know? Steve, Tony blasted her back like 40 feet!” I yelled. 
“And she’s going to be fine, Buck!” 
“YOU DON’T KNOW THAT!”
“SHE’S ONE OF US, BUCKY!” Steve yelled. 
“...what do you mean?” 
“She has powers. When she got tested in the lab, when you were getting questioned, they ran every test they could because they could not understand why she only had minor injuries and that her baby was in perfect health after what she went through. Sharon got the results back after we left the building and she told me when I got my shield back. I was going to tell you but then everything happened so fast.” Steve said.
“How did she get her powers?” I asked. 
“We don’t know. I don’t even know what they are.” Steve said. 
“I saw what they were.” I told him. “She has these white veins that come from her hands that generate heat it's like….she’s made of fire.” I said, shaking my head in disbelief. 
“She’s going to be okay, Buck. She’s going to want to kill Tony when she comes to but don’t we all right now?” Steve joked. I nodded in response. 
“God, Steve I fucked up.” I said. 
“No you didn’t.”
“Yes I did. Everything I’ve done since becoming The Winter Soldier has been a living nightmare. I can’t hold a normal conversation with anyone without them recognizing me and calling me a monster. I’m forced to remember everything I’ve ever done. I can’t sleep without nightmares and the one friend I decided to make, I…..I managed to fuck up her life.” 
“Don’t think like that.”
“I just ….. I don’t know if I’m worth all this, Steve.” I told him.
“What you did all those years...that wasn’t you. You didn’t have a choice.”
“I know…...but I did it.” I told him. 

Y/N POV
I woke up, groggy. I was laying in a blue one piece suit and I felt this heavy thing around my neck. I reached up to feel what it was but, I had two metal bracelet detectors on my wrists. 
“What the hell…” I whispered to myself. I stood up and I felt very dizzy. I wasn’t in any pain because I clearly received medical attention while I was unconscious due to my bandages and stitches. I walked over to the bars and I saw Wanda sitting on the ground in the cell across from me. 
“Y/N. That you?” I heard Sam say. He was in the cell next to mine. 
“Sam, what’s happening..” I asked. 
“We’re in a floating jail in the middle of the ocean.” he told me. 
“What?”
“I don’t know…” he sighed. I let go of the bars and just sat back on my bed. I heard the entrance door open and I looked up from my bed to see Tony. Anger surged through my body but the metal detectors on my wrists and neck prohibited me to act on anything. He walked over to Clint, who clearly wasn’t happy to see him. None of us were. When Tony finally walked away from him, he banged on the walls, making everyone flinch, including Tony. 
“How is everyone?’ I heard Sam ask. 
“They’re flying to Columbia Medical tomorrow so...fingers crossed.” Tony told him. 
“How are you doing, Spirit Fingers?” Tony asked, leaving over to my cell. I looked up at him and basically gave him a death glare.
"You know you're alive because of me. I got you all fixed up and pretty again." He told me.
"Am I supposed to thank you for that?" I said, to which he comically winced and then leaned back. 
“What do you need? They feed you yet?” Tony asked him. 
“So you’re the good cop now?” Sam laughed. 
“I’m just a guy that needs to know where Steve went.” He said. 
“Well you better go get a bad cop..cause you’re gonna have to go all Mark Fuhrman on my ass to get information outta me.” Sam said, raising his voice. 
“Well I just knocked the A out of their AV. We got about 30 seconds before they realize they can’t hear us. Now this...this is the guy who was supposed to interrogate Barnes.” Tony said. I sprung up from the bed and walked over to the cell. 
“Knew that’d get your attention.” Tony said. He showed me a picture of a dead man on his watch. 
“Clearly, I made a mistake. I was wrong.”
“That’s a first.” Sam said. 
“I told you. I told you and you didn’t believe me. You didn’t believe either of us.” I said, pissed off. 
“He had Barnes’s picture. You gotta admit it was pretty convincing..” Tony started before I gave him the death glare again. 
“Alright alright….I’m sorry.” he said, sincerely. 
“Cap is definitely off the reservation but he’s about to need all the help he can get. We don’t know each other very well, you don’t have to-”
“Its..alright.” Sam said, “....look I’ll tell you...but you have to go alone, and as a friend.” Sam insisted. 
“Easy.” Tony said. Sam admitted where they were and Tony thanked him. 
“I want to go.” I spoke up. 
“You can't.” Tony told me. 
“I need to go I need to let Bucky know I’m okay.” I pleaded. 
“I can’t just break you out of a maximum security prison in the middle of the ocean. Saying ‘pretty please’ won't work this time.” Tony said. 
“C’mon..” I said, almost crying. 
“I will tell him you and the baby are alive and well, okay? I promise.” Tony said. 
“Let him know that none of this is his fault.” I said. Tony nodded before he turned back to Sam and thanked him before he left.
“Y/N.” Sam said. I didn’t answer because I was crying. 
“You’ll see him again….it’s going to be okay.” He said softly. 
“How do you know?” I asked. 
“I just do..”