Imitation • SaTzu [BOOK 2]

06

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

These five small, simple words will be the change in my life that I need right now. Five words that no longer can take back. Five words that will brighten my world. Five words that will send me miles away from Tzuyu.

This is the right choice.

I have lost the love of my life but that doesn't mean Nayeon should lose hers.

I felt her grip tighten. Her eyes held disbelief and joy. She can't believe I have spoken those words, I can sense it. "Huh?"

"I want you to be my girlfriend, Nayeon"

"Sana, are you sure?"

I gave her a small nod.

Before I knew it I felt plump lips positioned securely on mine.

She was kissing me.

Kissing was foreign to me. The only lips I felt before was Tzuyu's but that was when I was only eight. Although it was a long time ago I still remember how perfect it was and how I felt like butterflies were roaming throughout my stomach.

Nayeon's lips felt different.

A feeling that's not bad and unfamiliar.

All her feelings were gushing out, no longer locked away. The way her cherry lips moved against mine displayed passion. Passion I never knew she held.

Throughout the whole kiss my lips didn't move, like if they were screwed shut.

Nayeon too into the kiss didn't notice the stiffness I became until she surprised me with an action I did not see coming. She gently sucked on my bottom lip which resulted me to quickly backing away.

She gasped, the realization of what she did finally hitting her.

"Oh my gosh, i'm so sorry Sana" she cuffed my cheeks with her warm hands, thumbs slowly caressing them.

Although i'm still shocked about what just happened, I couldn't help but laugh at Nayeon's reaction.

"It's okay Nayeon."

I fiddled with the hem of my shirt, nervous on the words I will speak next. Words that I don't even know if I truly meant. Words that scare me. And words that will once again led me away from Tzuyu.

"I-I liked it"

Tzuyu's POV

"So, how did it go?"

I fumbled my way to the couch, flopping right next to the occupied Jeongyeon with her laptop.

"Fine, I guess. She freaked out on the end for no reason"

She payed a little attention to me, more focus on the screen in front of her.

"I got to kiss a hot girl"

Out of the blue she roused up, laptop scrambling to the ground, letting out a big crash which I assumed was the screen.

"YOU DID WHAT?!"

"I kissed a girl"

I watched as the blonde friend of mine turned shade of red which I didn't know she could.

"ON YOUR FUCKING DATE WITH SANA??!!"

"Yeah, so? It's not like she likes me"

"I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT YOU'RE SAYING TO ME RIGHT NOW!!" she tugged her hair, clearly frustrated for a reason I don't know of.

"Unnie, why the fuck are you overreacting?"

"YOU KISSED A GIRL! ON YOUR DATE WITH SANA! SHE PROBABLY SAW YOU GUYS!!"

"She didn't unnie, don't worry and it's not like we're actually dating"

"ARE YOU FUCKIN SERIOUS TZUYU?! YOU'RE GOING TO ACT LIKE IT'S NOTHING!'

"Unnie stop fuckin yelling at me!"

"YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY SANA HUGGED YOU THAT DAY?! DAHYUN TOLD ME THAT SHE LOST SOMEONE REALLY SPECIAL. SOMEONE WHO TOOK CARE OF HER THROUGHOUT HER LIFE!"

"And I should care, why?"

She send me a glare that could honestly kill me.

"SHE TOLD ME YOU LOOK EXACTLY LIKE HER. THAT WHEN SANA SAW YOU, SHE WAS SO HAPPY BELIEVING THAT HER FRIEND CAME BACK!"

"I'm not that friend tho" i huffed, crossing my arms in front of my chest.

"OF COURSE YOU ARE NOT!! YOU'RE A FUCKIN ASSHOLE!!"

I quickly pushed myself off the couch, now staring at my angry blonde unnie.

"IT WAS JUST A DAMN KISS!"

"TO YOU IT MIGHT BE BUT TO SANA... IMAGINE HER FACE WHEN SHE SAW THE PERSON WHO LOOKS ACTUALLY LIKE THE PERSON SHE LOVES KISSING A GIRL!!"

"Unnㅡ"

"TZUYU I'M DONE WITH YOU! DON'T FUCKIN TALK TO ME!"

I watched as she stormed out of the living room, heading to our shared room. I followed behind her.

She quickly gathered as much of her belongings, yanking them off from the shelves and closets, then placing it inside her bag.

"Where are you going?"

"TO FUCKIN SANA'S HOUSE"

She aggressively zipped up her bag and head her way to the door. I watched as she suddenly stopped on her place, hands gripped tightly on the doorknob.

She let ou a big sigh, signaling that the fire inside of her that was fuming a couple of minutes ago had burned out.

"Talk to me when the real Tzuyu shows up" she then exited the apartment. Abandoning me in this small apartment we call ours, well we used to.

The way those words rolled out of her mouth had an affect on me. I have never heard that tone before. It wasn't anger or sadness.

It was disappointment.

Jeongyeon had never been disappointed with me. She would always praise me, patting my head and giving me a 'great job kid' to go along with it. I don't remember a day which Jeongyeon was disappointed in me.

The real  Tzuyu...
Am I not Tzuyu??

Who am I then?