Soulbonds and Fairy Dust

Chapter 10

Loki left Frigga's suite and headed toward Sigyn's suite to find her and start to make amends for being stupid. He wasn't looking forward to that part, but he was looking forward to being her soulbond for eternity. That part sounded fantastic. Instead of finding Sigyn, he found Thor standing outside her door. That was annoying. He didn't want to see his idiot brother. He wanted to see his soulbond.

"Did you and Mother get the soulbond sorted?" Thor asked Loki. He kept his voice gentle and kind, despite that he was a bit afraid that Loki was going to do something stupid. He didn't want Loki breaking Sigyn's heart now that he finally had her back.

Loki showed Thor his arm and the mark that was still there and Thor breathed a sigh of relief. "Is Sigyn alright?" Loki asked his idiot brother.

"She was... concerned... when I brought her here," Thor replied, though seemed reassured that Loki hadn't had the soulbond broken. Concerned wasn't a strong enough word, but it was the best one that Thor could come up with at the moment. He wasn't a skilled wordsmith like Loki. "She seems to have remembered her past from being back here and went to go find her mother," Thor added. Sigyn's rooms were across the hall from Loki's while her mother's had been in a separate wing of the palace with the rest of the nobles' suites. Frigga had never explained why Sig got a suite in the royal wing, but Loki had just been glad to have his best friend close as a child.

Loki's eyes widened in horror. "Oh no. Oh no. Ohno," he said in a panic.

"What?" Thor asks confused. He'd thought it was better that Sigyn go see her mother than fret and worry and be depressed over Loki probably rejecting the soulbond. It had seemed like a good idea, but Loki seemed to know something that Thor didn't.

"Mother and I never got a chance to tell her!" Loki replied and immediately took off running, looking for his missing soulbond. Thor was on Loki's heels immediately, wondering what was going on. Despite his curiosity and Loki's lack of explanation, he would always go with his brother to help him with whatever the problem was. "Mother told me that her father died in the battle of Alfheim. Her mother passed from the heartbreak of losing her husband and daughter in such a short period of time. We need to find SIg and fast," Loki's voice was frantic as he explained the situation to Thor as they rushed through the halls of the palace.

Thor nodded. "Can't you find her by magic somehow? She could be anywhere in the palace by now,"

Loki stopped in his tracks, closing his eyes to concentrate. He focused on the soulbond, hoping there was some magic in it that would allow him to better be able to locate Sig. He felt the pull from the marks on his arm toward hers and took off running again in the direction it led. He hoped that he would reach her in time. Thor kept pace with him and the people in the corridors jumped out of the way of the running princes. No one ever wanted to be in the way of those two when they were running.

The two came to a halt when they found Sigyn crying in an alcove outside of the suite that had been her Mother's. Loki rushed over to her and pulled her into a hug. "I'm so sorry, Sigyn," he told her gently as her arms wrapped tightly around him and she sobbed her heartbreak into his shoulder. His fingers combed through her hair as he tried to soothe her pain. All he could do was hold her for however long it took.

Sigyn's sobs seemed to last forever in Loki's eyes, as there as nothing he could do to ease them, except to continue holding her. They did eventually slowly ease and she looked up at him with tears still streaming from her eyes. "Mama... mama's gone too," she managed to tell him before the tears started again in earnest. He hugged her tighter to him, and she felt his tears land in her hair. She finally managed to stop her tears fully and extricated herself from his arms, rubbing her eyes dry roughly. "I'm sorry... I-" she didn't know what to say. Her life had been turned upside down multiple times over the last day and she thought she was going to lose Loki too on top of everything else.

Loki cupped her cheek in his hand and tilted her head up to look him in the eyes. "I understand, Sigyn. We will always be here for you. I will always be here for you. I'm so sorry you had to find out this way. Mother and I were going to tell you but we hadn't gotten the chance. I'm so, so sorry Sigyn,"

"You... you knew?" she asked him softly. Of course, he'd been so distracted by the soulbond to remember to tell her. He'd been so frantic and afraid since it had appeared. He'd forgotten about her besides giving her one snapped order to come with him and Thor. They'd just met again...and then when Frigga told him about the soulbond... he'd of course forgotten about her... she wasn't important to him, not anymore.

Loki nodded sadly. "I was going to tell you, I swear. I just didn't know the right time and I was not expecting to return to Asgard so soon,"

Sigyn nodded just as sadly. "D-did your mother tell you what you needed?" she asked him softly, nervously. She was afraid she was going to lose him too. She wasn't sure she could handle losing him and her parents both in the same day.

He nodded again. "She did." He hesitated before he asked his next question "What is your opinion of all of this, the soulbond, I mean?" He was scared to ask, afraid of being rejected. They didn't know each other anymore. How could she possibly want to be soulbound to a monster?

Thor conveniently vanished to give the two privacy and make sure no one else came down the hall to bother them. Sigyn was relatively ok and this was a private conversation. "You didn't seem particularly pleased with the news," she told him softly instead of answering his question. It would do no good to tell him her feelings if he was just going to have the soulbond broken.

Loki sighed heavily and fought the urge to pinch the bridge of his nose. "It was just unexpected and complicated. I have a price on my head. I'm a criminal and a monster. If you knew everything I've done, you would want nothing to do with me..." he told her. His words were blunt, though his voice gentle. He didn't want to hurt her, but he did want her to know what she was getting herself into if she agreed to be with him.

"It was unexpected," she agreed softly. "But not unwelcome... My hands aren't clean either and I already know damn well that you're a jotun and have already told you that you're not a monster," she reminded him firmly. She would knock some sense into him if she had to.

It was obvious from his expression that he didn't agree with her. He'd hated his true nature since he found out about it. He stuck exclusively to his Asgardian form for a reason. "Are you sure you want this? Want me?" He asked softly and she could hear the fear of rejection in his voice. She could see it in his eyes that he was preparing himself to be turned down, turned away.

"Only if you do," she replied just as softly. "I know I'm not the Sigyn you knew..." she was afraid of rejection too, especially since he was so close to rejecting her. She had seen it in his eyes. Why would he want her? She was half-fae or more and looked nothing like the child he remembered.

"You may not be the girl I knew when we were children but I am also not the boy you knew. I have not been that same boy since I found out my true heritage, no before that, not since I lost you. I do not wish to lose you again, not now that I have finally found you again. I would be honored to be soulbond to you if you'll have me,"

"I'd love nothing more," she replied with a tentative smile and no hesitation or lie in her voice. She wrapped her arms around him. His went comfortably around her in return and she finally felt properly home in his arms.