𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫; mattia polibio

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february 6 2021

mia: so when's your birthday
landon: august 1 2000, you
mia: august 8 2003
landon: i remember seeing you at mom and dads funeral
mia: i don't remember seeing you
landon: i was the last person to see them, wearing a white hoodie, black sweatpants, looked really dead
mia: you were the one crying too loud
landon: uhh yeah sure
mia: yeah
landon: i bet you're wondering why you don't know me
mia: yes
landon: i lived in america, with abuelita and abuelito
mia: i've never seen you tho
landon: i liked staying in my room, i liked the quiet and then i moved back home to see lucas and antonio turn 19
mia: oh
landon: i see you have a boyfriend
mia: uhh hector
landon: the one you were with last night
mia: he's not my boyfriend, we're just talking. we like each other so yeah
landon: i can tell he really likes you, might even love you

what.

mia: huh
landon: the way he looks at you-
mia: you been in love before
landon: yeah, my ex girlfriend rose used to look at me that way, eyes full of happiness and love
mia: what happened
landon: she died
mia: i'm sorry landon
landon: it's okay, you been in love
mia: yeah, 3 times
landon: wow, explain further

here goes nothing.

mia: mattia polibio. he was my first love, first kiss, first sex experience, first date, first everything. i thought he was my soulmate at the age of 14, he was there for me through everything and i'd do anything to have him back. he always made sure i was okay and never doubted me, he knew the right words to say when i felt upset. he was honestly the perfect boyfriend but when we broke up, my whole world was falling down. my ex best friend cynthia threatened him with my nudes and they've been talking halfway through our relationship. we got back together summer 2020 then his ex jenna took a picture of his now ex best friend nico kissing me. she showed mattia, mattia didn't see that i was watching and he kissed her then that's the end. we're still friends cause he lives in ottawa but his crazy girl is ugh so annoying, still love him tho

if i explained more, i'd cry.

landon: that was a lot
mia: i know
landon: who's next
mia: anthony pacheco. i kinda used him to get over mattia but i ended up falling in love with him and i thought he did as well. he was abusive and raped me multiple times but my dumbass stayed with him cause he made me feel loved. he was hot as well
landon: i'm so sorry mia
mia: ew don't feel bad
landon: ok
mia: adrian rodriguez. wow he was so special to me, he was the one person who cheered me up and i loved him so much. so much words can't explain, it was the highlight of my day to see him. his hugs were the best and so were his kisses, he was the boy every girl dreamt of having. he cheated tho
landon: your heart gets broken a lot
mia: i give it to the wrong people
landon: i see that
mia: shut up, tell me about rose, it's good talking

i saw him smile softly and he took a deep breath. i know we're just getting to know each other but i can tell he has a lot to say about rose. i said her name and his eyes lit up, it's cute.

landon: rose gonzales. she was so beautiful, perfect in my eyes. although she deserves someone better, every guy wanted her but she still ran into my arms after i showered. she made me feel loved, she made me feel so happy, she was the best thing that ever happened to me. i'll never forget the day i asked her out, afraid she would reject me but she smiled at me. the brightest smile that lit up a room, she said yes in excitement and hugged me. she laughed afterwards and i told her i'd pick her up at 7, she showed up in this beautiful elegant black dress. i opened the door for her and she kissed my cheek, the restaurant was perfect. the day i told her i loved her, she started crying of happy tears, she said it back immediately and kissed me so passionately. i miss her a lot but i know she'd want me to move on and be happy