Famous; Mat Barzal

27; two of us

I dialed the number again, waiting for the rings to stop. Eventually they did, and the phone beeped before a familiar voice came on the line, "Hey, it's Rebecca. Apparently I can't get to the phone right now, so I'll call you back when I can!"

I sighed and just looked out the window, not knowing what to do today. These past few days have been terrible, I'm not gonna lie. I haven't been motivated to do much, and I haven't really left my room.

Things were really rough.

There was a knock on my door, but when I didn't answer, the door opened anyway. I didn't bother looking back at who it was because it didn't really matter.

"Riley?" The soft voice asked, making my eyes slightly widen. I turned around to see Mat standing there, looking more careful than ever, "Hey, Ri."

I let out a sigh of relief and wrapped my arms around him. I haven't seen Mat in a good 3 weeks, and our talking had been narrowed down.

I know it wasn't fair of me to shut him out, but I needed some time to myself and he respected that.

His arms wrapped around me a little tighter than usual, "How are you feeling?"

I kept my face nuzzled into his chest, "I-I've been better. I'm just trying to get through it at this point I guess."

"Is there anything you need me to do?" He asked, pulling away slightly and looking down at me. I shook my head, "No, I just want you to stay with me for a little bit."

I think we both knew I needed a little bit of a distraction from everything going on.

He nodded, pulling away from the hug. He took my hand in his and brought me over to my bed, sitting down. He pulled me onto the bed with him, so I sat next to him with my head on his shoulder.

"So, have you decided when you're going back to L.A.?" Mat asked, trying to lighten the mood for a little bit.

I shook my head, "I don't want to leave my family just yet. I think I'll probably stay until the end of January, and then I'll go back to L.A."

Mat nodded, "Thats good. Have you written any songs lately?" I could tell that he was treading on water because he was being super light and delicate with me, knowing I could break at any moment.

"Hm, no not really. And I hate that because I promised her that I wouldn't stop writing," I said, my voice cracking.

Mat sighed, "Just write how you feel, Ri. Even if you're just rambling, it always turning into something beautiful."

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(Two of us by Louis Tomlinson)

"It's been a minute since I called you
Just to hear the answerphone
Yeah, I know that you won't get this
But I'll leave a message so I'm not alone
This morning I woke up still dreaming
With memories playing through my head
You'll never know how much I miss you
The day that they took you, I wish it was me instead
But you once told me, "Don't give up
You can do it day by day"
And diamonds, they don't turn to dust or fade away
So I will keep you day and night, here until the day I die
I'll be living one life for the two of us
I will be the best of me, always keep you next to me
I'll be living one life for the two of us
Even when I'm on my own, I know I won't be alone
Tattooed on my heart are the words of your favorite song
I know you'll be looking down, swear I'm gonna make you proud
I'll be living one life for the two of us
I could feel your blood run through me
You're written in my DNA
Looking back in every mirror
I know you'll be waiting, I'll see you again
But you once told me, "Don't give up
You can do it day by day"
And diamonds, they don't turn to dust or fade away (fade away)
So I will keep you day and night, here until the day I die
I'll be living one life for the two of us
I will be the best of me, always keep you next to me
I'll be living one life for the two of us
Even when I'm on my own, I know I won't be alone
Tattooed on my heart are the words of your favorite song
I know you'll be looking down, swear I'm gonna make you proud
I'll be living one life for the two of us
I promised you I'd do this
So all of this is all for you
Oh, I swear to God you're living
Through everything I'll ever do
So I will keep you day and night, here until the day I die
I'll be living one life for the two of us
I will be the best of me, always keep you next to me
I'll be living one life for the two of us
Even when I'm on my own, I know I won't be alone
Tattooed on my heart are the words of your favorite song
I know you'll be looking down, swear I'm gonna make you proud
I'll be living one life for the two of us
One life for the two of us
I'll be living one life for the two of us
We'll end just like we started
Just you and me and no one else
I will hold you where my heart is
One life for the two of us"

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OKAY GUYS PLEASE DONT KILL ME

I know I haven't been updating like at all, but I'm gonna be honest, I'm losing a lot of motivation for this book.

And I hate to say this, but I think the only way for me to actually be motivated to write this is to come back on my own and want to write it.

By no means am I ending this book, but I just can't promise that I'm going to update every week on this.

So, with that being said.... would you guys be mad if I came out with more books while I took my time with this one?

Let me know

-thank you guys for all the support 🤍