Care For Me

22

Y/N's POV

Jungkook mentioned something about a cliff that I was determined to find but I landed at a beautiful, little opening with a small river instead. The sun was about to set but still shimmered through the trees and created a soothing atmosphere.  Running had ruined my bun and I couldn't be bothered to fix it. Instead, I just roughly yanked the hair tie out of my hair and groaned in frustration when it didn't work with the first try. Of course I couldn't even do that properly. I'm a disappointment through and through.

I sat down in front of the river and watched a few frogs jump into the water before the flow washed them away. If only I was able to leave as fast as they did. On the other hand, that was a pretty great example of what my life has become.

I used to sit and watch everything pass by but then Jungkook showed up and I suddenly wanted to get in an experience the river myself. That's when I realized that the river had its on mind, its own direction that I now had to involuntarily follow.

It washed me away from the spot I used to watch everything from and ruthlessly took me anywhere it wanted me to. I had no control over anything anymore and was forced to adjust to the stream.

My river of life brought me to the realization that I actually wasn't crazy but a werewolf and therefore part of a hidden world. A world I didn't understand but needed to live in now because there was no going back. Only salmons go against the stream.

I found Jungkook and I don't think I could be happier about that, so it definitely wasn't all bad. Just unexpected and chaotic. I also found new friends, Rosé, Jennie, Jimin and Taehyung which was great but didn't help me with my current situation.

In my mind that only made it worse because I felt even more stuck here now. It's not that I didn't want to stay but I felt kind of trapped the more I heard about the rules, laws, guidelines and expectations. It almost seemed like they weren't speaking the same language.

Everyone was deciding things over my head because of traditions, terms and reasons I've never even heard of prior to this week and it left me feeling suffocated, lonely and helpless.

The river had thrown me down a waterfall and I didn't know if I would survive the impact of meeting the surface below. The weird feeling in my stomach only added to this river- and free-fall-metaphor though I knew it had nothing to do with it.

"You need to stop running away from me", Jungkook sighed when he sat down next to me and tried to make eye contact. "Think of it as cardio. I'm only thinking about our health", I replied and looked away so he wouldn't see my puffy cheeks.

"You found my safe place", he then said and I raised my eyebrows in surprise. "Really? This is an amazing safe place. It's beautiful here...", I complimented and cleared my throat to sound less sad and broken.

"Mhm... Everything is calm and soothing... I feel better just looking at the scenery but now that I think about it, something was always missing", Jungkook remarked and I finally tilted my head to look at him. "What was missing?"

"You, of course", he shrugged like it was obvious and then smiled softly. "Everything was always missing...you". I gave him a pained smile in return and then leaned my head against his shoulder. "Sorry...that I just left like that", I hesitantly apologized.

"Don't be, Y/N. You told me from the start so I knew it was coming. Being familiar with their personalities, it was only a matter of time until they would cross the line. I'm impressed that you stayed in there for so long", Jungkook assured and pecked the top of my head.

"Was it bad? Do they hate me now? I know this dinner was important...", I mumbled worriedly. "Don't worry about it. It's all good. We're mates and just found each other, they will base their conclusions on that. Give me your hand", he said as he got up.