Words I Didn't Say // D.S

Chapter 3

Every time we got closer, I pushed you away.

Madelaine's POV:

I ran towards the library, a place where I drown all of my sorrows with history books. Facts that I find so interesting that it fills up my spirit whenever I read some. It just feels as if I'm in a different place and time. And I tend to forget everything, including my problems. I sat below a shelf as I read the page all about Cleopatra's love interests. I didn't realize that I was crying until a drop of warm liquid landed onto the book, clearly making a stain in the process.

Cleopatra's lucky that she has Mark Anthony. Even though their relationship had a political component, they are still fond of each other nevertheless. With her looks, she's able to get everything she's ever dreamed of. I sigh, I can't do this. I don't know why it didn't work this time, but I just can't seem to drown into this. I put the book back in search to find another one. I pulled a random book about maps and opened it. I sighed in frustration as I put it back. Nothing seemed to go onto my taste. I sat back down on the floor, pulling my knees close to my chest. I don't know what I did to make him act towards me like that today. Did he already know? Fuck I'm so sensitive.

I wiped off my tears and started to go to the nearest bathroom. I texted Christina if she is available, and luckily she is. She's the only one who knows about my feelings towards Daniel. I sat down on the toilet seat pulling my knees close to my chest, as I continue to silently cry to myself. I heard someone got in and within seconds, a silent knock was heard from the other side of the thin wooden door. I opened it and Christina got inside.

"Hey honey, what's the matter?"

"D-daniel he- *hiccup* "

"He what? Take deep breaths love, so I can understand you properly" I did what I was told, and not for long my breathing went back to normal again. "Okay, so tell me what he did"

"I know this might sound overly dramatic, but I really got hurt. He kinda avoided me when I was catching up on him to walk with him to class. But then I remembered that I was gonna ask him earlier if he was okay, yet I didn't get the chance to. Because I noticed that he seems a bit off. So yeah, I asked him about it. But then he stopped and snapped at me and pushed my hand away so harshly, and he walked away" I sighed. "Christina, I really don't know what I did to make him act like that. Was asking if you're okay, a bad thing now?"

She sighed and started to speak, "Okay first of all, what the hell is his problem anyway? You don't deserve that shit and I'm gonna kick his ass later. Second, it's not a bad thing to ask if someone is okay. He is lucky that he has you by his side. And third, you don't usually cry. Why so emotional?"

"I don't know" I said annoyingly while sniffling.

"Madelaine my love, please don't ever cry about such a stupid thing he did. Because there's someone better than him that's waiting for you. He might not be with you right now, probably because it's not the right time. But I know that someone is out there waiting, you just have to be patient and go with the flow" But I don't want someone else, I only want him and only him. I sighed, and looked up and nodded at her and smiled.

"What would I even do without you?"

"Well, you're literally gonna suffer. Now, come on. Wipe your tears and wash your face in that sink. And I'm gonna fix your makeup. Okay?" She said while squatting in front of me.

"Okay" I sniffled.

"THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKIN' BOUT!!! Come on mah lil hoe!" She said while getting up and taking my hands, pulling me up.