Mental heath poems/personal short story's

Senior Night

Sorry I haven't add to this for a while when their were times I should of but tonight kinda just sucked. No I am not a senior but my sister is and so since she was in a sport at out first home football game we announce the cheer, football, and cross country seniors and our coach want to do something special since all the seniors has younger siblings in the sport. He had us hold up their little poster thing and walk up with them, they didn't know and we didn't know what to do and of course my sister was up first so it was super awkward my parent were telling me to stay in the photos while my sister was telling me to go so I listen to my sister. What made it worse was the other seniors had their siblings go with them and that kinda make me want to cry because I already had a mentally stressful day which I might talk about. When they were taking the group photo my family were trying to have me join but because I was on verge of a mental breakdown in the middle of the track so I told they I was taking photo which I did. The entire night suck because my parent were upset my sister did that (which I don't blame her for) and my sister kept apologizing since she felt like she had too but being the good sister I am I said "I don't care" or "It's fine" ahh fine the most popular word for people masking next to "I'm ok" of course, but back to what I was saying I acted like everything was fine when I just want to cry but since I know it bothered her so much I wasn't going to complain about it being embarrassing for me because she's the senior. When we went home early (we were losing 0-48 and it wasn't even halftime) she kept complaining about how embarrassing it was for her and how she'll "never" live this down and stuff like that I was sitting there not speaking so I don't annoy her further thinking about how I have to be a good sister and let her think I'm fine and it doesn't bother me. Anyways that's pretty much it if I could rewind time I would because we all just embarrass out siblings and ourself especially me I don't think I'm going to talk about what happen today maybe later but it's getting harder to breath writing this and I want to calm my mind down with reading
Bye Lane