Don't leave me again. [Jotakak]

Chapter 21 - I'm sorry

[Kakyoins POV]
After what happened in the bathroom I couldn't shake the feeling I was being watched. Before the others came to help me the man had whispered small insults into my ear.

 He had said how I would never be loved if I told them He said how id be alone if I told them. Part of me wanted to believe he was lying but the other side of me thought he was right.  I had taken a shower after the incident and began cleaning the bathroom. Halfway through I heard a knock on the door before it opened.

"Need a hand, Nori?" It was Jotaro, I assume the others were still in the main room. 

I shook my head, a dull look on my face, "I'm fine, go back to whatever you were doing."

Jotaro didn't seem convinced, "Are you okay Nori? You don't seem too great."

I snapped him a glare, "I'm fine, okay? Now fuck off."

 What that man had said had got to me. As I showered I decided I would distance myself from Jotaro, then break his heart. I didn't care how much it affected me, better to leave him now than have him leave me in the future.

After my little spurt of anger, he left me alone in the bathroom. Did I want to leave Jotaro? Of course, I didn't, but id rather leaves him now than face the feeling of being alone later. It took around an hour for me to fully clean the bathroom before I walked out into the main room. I and Jotaro had only been dating for a few days and I was already questioning our relationship. I was a bad person. I was such a bad person. I didn't deserve Jotaro. Jotaro waved at me as I walked out, flashing me a smile. 

"The others went home already, they gave me their numbers then left."

 I nodded in response.

 "Uh, Jotaro," He looked over to me, giving me a concerned look. "We need to talk."

I walked over to the couch and patted the set next to me, implying I wanted him to sit. He quickly walked over to me before sitting down and facing me.

I rested my hands on him before holding on to them and looking down. I couldn't make eye contact with him while I broke his heart.

 "I just want to know that I love you but," I paused at the 'but' and looked up. He seemed to know what was coming. "I love you but... I can't do this."

Jotaro let his head hang low as he shook it.

"A-And I know- I hope you'll understand but I can't and I'm not ready for it," I noticed a few wet patches had formed on Jotaros jeans, were they...tears? Was he crying? "I am sorry, I'm so fucking sorry but I cant."

I pulled him into a hug before bursting into tears, "A-And if you don't mind you can either stay in my apartment and ill leave or ill stay in my apartment and you go to live with one of the other members because I just don't want you to feel hurt if you see me every day."

Jotaro nodded into my shoulder before he pulled away. "I-Ill goes live somewhere else," he paused to wipe and his nose with his hand. "I can't take you away from your home."He stood up before looking back at me."I guess this is goodbye, Noriaki Kakyoin."

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[Jotaros POV]

I pulled my phone out, calling Sienna. He didn't answer.

 So I called Luca next. We didn't get along well but we were around the same age, so it made sense.

 He answered.

"L-Luca?"

"Jotaro? Are you okay? Are you crying?"

Shit.

"I- Um- Nori broke up with me and- And I need a place to stay."

I heard Luca tut on the other line. "Why would I do that?"

"Please, Luca!"

"Okay, okay jeez, send me your location."

I did as he asked and within a couple of minutes, he had arrived to pick me up. He unlocked the car and as I hopped into the car he handed me a box of tissues.

"I stopped off at the gas station first," He looked at me and smiled. He was completely different from how he was earlier. "I, uh, figured you'd need them."

I nodded and mumbled a quiet 'thank you'.

"Jotaro while you have nowhere to sleep I will gladly let you stay at my place."

I nodded, "Thank you, Luca, really it means a lot."

 He focused his eyes on the road as he drove.

"Do you mind if I put on some music?" He looked towards me for a split second as I nodded and he messed around with the radio.

 The first song that came on was Noriaki's favourite song. I politely asked Luca if he could skip the song to which he nodded and skipped it. I rested my head on the window, looking out of it. It was really cold tonight, to the point where I was shivering. Luca noticed this.

"Are you cold? There's a blanket in the back."

I nodded in thanks before grabbing the blanket and wrapping it around myself.

"What did you like about him?"I looked over to Luca, who seemed to be genuinely interested. "Sorry, I just don't understand how you fell for Noriaki out of everyone."

I chuckled a bit as he smiled.

"His personality, his smile, his face, specifically his eyes."

"Elaborate"

"Before we travelled to Egypt together I remember always being fascinated with his eyes. They reminded me of the oceans during a sunset when the highlights in the water turn into a soft purple colour. His eyes inspired me to study Marine Biology. Think of it as a way I commemorated his memory."

Luca chuckled, "He must've meant a lot to you. I wish someone cared about me like that."

"There'll be someone someday, Luca," I smiled at him. "I guarantee it."