✧ 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐞 // 𝘬𝘪𝘳𝘪𝘻𝘰𝘯𝘰 ✧

part 4 ✧

"hey, can you pick me up?"

i said, blankly to the phone. for some reason i felt weird, like i'm being held back from speaking comfortably,, like some kind of numbness.

"hold on- why do you sound so moody now?"

"i don't, but can you please pick me up? i need to go home in time"

"alright..? what time should i come?"

"20 minutes, if you can"

"i'll call you when i arrive, then?"

"sure"

"okay, bye!"

"bye"

i hung up and put my phone back in my pocket.

i let out an audible sigh as i try to understand why i felt so special when i was talking to sayaka. i felt like i was... valid.

i grabbed the iron and continued my work. i knew i wasn't focusing when something else was on my mind.

i remember thinking how i would never be able to talk to her ever again just yesterday night, and now... now that thought feels empty.

somehow i just feel we'll be able to talk again, maybe tomorrow, too.

i'm just... feeling some kind of hope.

i let out a sigh once again. all i had to do was to grab my bag and leave now,, another day that just went on fast.

right at that moment, the room that felt so empty got filled with my phone's ringtone.

time to go home.. again.

i grabbed my phone and answered the phone call.

"i'm here!! can't see you though"

"i'm coming"

"alright, i'm waiting"

i hung up again and started walking to the main door.

i walked towards his car and took the front seat.

"well, hey!"

sitting at the driver's seat, right next to me was my best friend, also the person i'm closest to, makoto.

"hi"

i smiled weakly. not only the weird numbness was remaining, i'm also very exhausted.

"tired much?"

he said as he started driving, and well, he was right.

"yeah"

"weird, you don't usually get physically tired"

oh wow. now i have to explain it all? no thanks.

"um.. well.."

i mumbled without even realizing it all.

"i'm getting the feeling you're keeping something from me!!"

he wasn't wrong. but it's too weird to explain.

"i'm not..!"

i did have to lie. i'm not even the type of person that lies a lot.

"you're all red, kiri"

wait... what?

"someone's crushing on someone!"

...crushing?

was i... crushing on sayaka?

wait...

what?

i never thought of it like this... but i suppose i'm not crushing. or?

this is really confusing.

"i'm not crushing... just... can't get something off my mind, that's all"

"then tell me"

"maybe later"

will he even believe me? a celebrity talking to a random worthless someone like me?

"okay then, i'm taking the long way home!!"

"makoto please! i need to get home in time, my dad will kill me you know it!!"

"then just tell meee"

it isn't even something that can be explained in such short time, but he's too persistent.

"i will... uhh... tomorrow"

"tomorrow?"

"yeah! i really will, please just take me home now"

i said, and laughed. i'm surprised he believed me. i'm probably not even gonna tell him tomorrow... no idea.

"fine"

we arrived at my apartment. just as i come home i know i'm going to go through another nightmare.

and it even matters more at this point. i'm actually feeling kind of happy for once and i don't want this feeling to go to waste.

"thanks"

i said, as i got out of the car.

"you know what to do, right?"

ever since makoto started driving & dropping me off at home he tells me to text him as soon as i get to my room,, appearantly to let him know i'm safe,

it feels nice someone cares about me this much.

"yeah, i will"

"alright, don't get me worried"

"okay"

i closed the door and walked to the door & took the stairs.

i opened my bag swiftly and took out the key. i opened the door and the same view of everyday was in front of my eyes.

"you're home early"

he approached me with a glass of wine in his hand, smirking. i can't stand this, i swear.

"what about it"

i responded blankly, not being able to get my eyes off the glass. it was so uncomfortable seeing it.

no response, too.

i walked to my room, shut the door & locked it afterwards.

as i texted makoto, saying "i'm home", i threw myself on my bed.

happiness didn't feel this real in a while.

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