Weeping Her Lost Desires (Baby Daddy Series #1)

Kabanata 8

Kabanata 8

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It was a dangerous feeling. It even exceeded my sentiments towards Tevaughn, who was my ideal guy ever since.

Just because I finally admitted it to myself, doesn't mean I'll accept it. No, I must not tolerate this in me. Kita at ramdam ko ang mga aksyon sa akin ni Ansel and it was nothing more than a friendly-care. I've read books about romances and friendships, his actions basically signified someone like a friend.

The teasing, the care, the advice, the sulking. Bago ako sa lahat ng nararamdaman ko pero sigurado akong na-analyze kong mabuti lahat ng fundamentals pag dating sa mga romansa.

He flinches whenever I touch him, it shows uneasiness which means discomfort for the other person, which leads to not liking them. Marami pa. Tevaughn was my closest encounter to love life and I feel very differently about Ansel.

Wala akong nararamdaman na kakaiba tuwing si Tevaughn ang kausap ko, habang si Ansel naman ay maglalakad pa lang siya, para na akong kinakain ng sarili kong pagkatao. Dati inis na inis ako sa mga babaeng gano'n ang reaskyon tuwing nakikita siya, ngayon naman ako na itong ganito.

Wala na bang mas magulo pa sa utak ko?

I also tried my best to avoid him for the second time around. I enrolled in summer classes for a Teen Leadership Foundation in Ilocos so I won't be far from my parents. I prepared all my essentials and credentials for CETs. I studied until I forgot about everything else other than my trail, my future path.

I avoided not only Ansel but also every bit of my social life.

Ito dapat ang matagal ko nang ginawa para hindi na lumala.

"We are so proud of you."

I finished the program with many awards. Pinayagan ako nina Mama at Papa na ituloy ang offer dito sa Ilocos habang nag o-online class. Yes, I still am enrolled in my old school for my last year as a Senior High Schooler.

My father talked to the principal about that matter and they allowed me to take lessons via online. I escaped all of it. I decided all these in a matter of a day and I succeeded, I am my old self again. Oras at isolation lang ang kailangan ko para makabangon ulit sa pagkakamali ko.

I counted my feelings for Ansel as my destruction. I counted my friendship with Brigette as the same. Kelly called me from time to time. I didn't have the chance to explain to her when I left her hanging. She was patient all throughout. She was my real friend.

Ginala ko ang paningin ko sa limang kabayong nakaabang. I joined horse racing in the league here in Ilocos. I do this on my weekends. Natuto na rin ako ng ibang activity na ginagamitan ng ibang skills. Hindi na lang puro libro tungkol sa school ang hilig ko.

"Guillermo, how about you teach me stunts today?"

Guillermo is our hostler and my trainer. He's old, older than my Papa but he still has it. He's Spanish but he knows how to speak Tagalog and Ilocano. I insisted to call him Uncle or Kuya, but he wanted me to call him by his first name, so he'd still feel young.

"Pagod na ako. Bukas na lang," aniya.

Umiling ako sa sinabi niya. Hindi puwede. My departmental is tomorrow and my proctors will be deliberating if they'll still allow me to continue the second semester based here or they'll be needing me to attend classes physically again. Pero hindi ko napapayag si Guillermo kaya wala akong nagawa kundi pagmasdan ang mga kabayong binabalik niya sa tamang puwesto.

"I love you, Felipe." I kissed my favorite horse as Guillermo moved them back to the stable.

"Your eighteenth birthday is next week. Don't you think we should move back to Manila even if your teachers will allow you to continue having your classes online?" ani Mama.