Scalpel Please!

Chapter 20: Some wounds can't be cured

Rovi slightly smiled when Amara gave him a cup of coffee. He needs that. He badly needs that. Mabilisan lamang niya iyong sinimsim bago bago saglit na tinignan ang kanyang telepono. Doon lamang niya napagtanto na isang linggo. Isang linggo na pala siyang wala sa sarili at masyadong okyupado sa kanyang ginagawa kaya hindi na niya nabasa ang mensaheng nandodoon

From: Unknown

Hey Doc. Wanna have some dinner tonight? Naiwan mo pager mo kanina

That was from last week

From: Unknown

Uhmmm Hey Rov, Nagbreakfast ka na ba? I checked you in your apartment kanina. Wanna do something in the office? Like a Coffee date hmm?

This was 6 days ago. Bakit nawala sa isip niya si Renzo? Mahina siyang napamura sabay mabilis na nag-isip kung ano ang dapatniyang gawin. It was like forgetting something very important to him just because of job.

From: Unknown

Rovi, di ko alam ang dapat sabihin. Marami akong gustong itanong sa 'yo. ButI can't. Bakit ka ba ganito? Dumadating ka sa buhay ko and you will make me happy for some moment then siuddenly mawawala ka. You are like a cloud 9 that forms once in a lifetime yet you condensate so easily. Sorry. Pasensya ka na. Mabilis lang siguro akong nasanay sa matatamis salita. Mabilis lang siguro akong nahulog sa matatamis mong ngiti. Pero siguro tama na. Oras na para ayusin ang lahat.

He completely froze just by reading that. It was from hours ago. Marahan lamang siyang tiningnan ni Amara habang wala sa sariling kumilos palabas ng opisinang iyon.

"Saan ka pupunta? I thought you have to finish this?" her eyebrows raised against him

"Ahh... Eh.. I just have to check Claire. I have to make sure she's doing great" pagdadahilan niyan.

"Sinungaling!" hindi niya ikinabigla ang reaksyong iyon ng direktor. After all she's a psychologist and can read people. But you can't blame a guy for trying to hide his feelings.

"Okay. I have to go to Dr. Lee to ask his help for the operation. You know, he's our top general surgeon. He can assist or even guide me" he smiled at her assuring her that his kind of serious

"You know Rovinsky, You are a great doctor but not a good liar" napakamot nalang siya ng marinig iyon. Amara really knows him inside and out

"Anyway, wala pa siya sa opisina niya. Much better kung aabangan mo siya sa labas. Papasok na yon any moment now" upon hearing that he gladly waved at Amara and hurriedly run to the Hosipital's entrance to wait for his boyfriend. But the next thing he saw breaks his world.

RENZO was shocked on what Rovi have done to Max. He punched him right in the face the moment they enter the hospital. Kaagad naman

"Fuck! Ano ba Rovi! Anong problema mo?!" he bravely shouted at him]

"Problema ko? Yan! Yang putanginang yan na aligid ng aligid sa yo! Hindi ba yan makaintindi. You are mine Renzo! Mine alone! Kaya hinding-hindi ko hahayaang lumapit sa iyo yang Max na yan!" sinubukang niyang awatin ito sa pagharang niya sa kanya at saka malakas itong sinuntok

"Fuck Rovi?! Oo! Sayo ako. Oo kaya mo akong ipagdamot sa iba pero ako? Hindi ko alam kung may karapatan ba akong ipagdamot ka. Napakadaya mo Rovi..." hindi na niyang mapigilan ang nararamdamang bigla nalang sumabog sa harap ng binata

"... madaya ka Rovi. Sana sinabi mo man lang na may girlfriend ka na para nakalayo-layo man lang ako"

Hindi siya magawang tingnan ng binata. Mukhang alam nito ang sinasabi niya.

"Sasabihin ko naman sa 'yo... Pero--

"Pero ano Rovi? Kaialn mo ba balak sabihin? Kapag ba hulog na hulog na ako? Eh kung ganon pala sabihin mo na. Para matapos na ito, para matigil na ito...

Unti-unti niyang naramdaman ang panghihina, kasabay noon ang pagsakop sa kanyang paningin ng kadiliman.

ROVI can't say a word. He hurt Renzo that much and he is guilty of cheating with her girlfriend. Alam niya sa sarili niya na dapat inayos niya muna ang lahat bago sumuga sa isang bagay na walang kasiguraduhan. Now Renzo has just collapsed right in front of him At first he thought it was because from so much stress because of their confrontation but as he looks closer, napagtanto niya na ang binata ay inaatake na sa puso. Akmang lalapitan na niya ito ng biglang

"Wag mo siyang lalapitan, You are the cause of this I won't let you lay your finger on him again" matiim na babala sa kanya ni Max. He put Renzo in a stretcher and brought him to the emergency room. Habang siya naiwan doon, litong-lito sa nangyayari and he's helpless.

He's mad, he is mad at himself. Just because he didn't handle things well, he ruined himself and life of others.

Why love has to be like that? How he wish everything was just a surgery, that after everything bleeds out he can just stitch back the wound and let it heal.