Demented

Chapter 11

I wake up and see Zuri is not right beside me. I just get some clothes set out for the day. I got work today so after I get done filming, I have to head there. And if y'all didn't know, I work at Fred's. Scanning and talking to people the whole damn night. Regardless, I open the door to the bathroom and see Zuri butt ass naked washing her face. Towel on the ground around her feet. I'm standing there in awe. "You act like you've never seen a girl naked before. Calm down. Buddy getting a lil too happy down there. Need to game that damn thing!" I cover it up and laught as I walk past. I'm getting undressed and she's like, "Don't be afraid. Shit, I saw it all last night. Ain't shit to be ashamed about. You got it like that." I laugh as I take my clothes off. She looks over at me and sees my guy is still pretty happy. *I WOULD SAY ANOTHER PHRASE BUT WATTPAD AINT FINNA BAN ME* and she smirks. "Sa head must've not been that good if she ain't make you nut. Is that her first time giving you head?" "Umm yeah. That's the first ever sexual interaction we had." "So you just lost your oral virginity in front of me last night?" "Oh no, you know how sex hungry I was 9th grade year. Or no you don't, you weren't here. But nonetheless, I've gotten head a decent amount. That was nothing new." "I wasn't here your 9th grade year. I was fasho finna tell you that." "But nonetheless, that wasn't the first time I got head." She left out the bathroom as I hopped in the shower. I got out after about 15 mins and plopped on a towel. I walk back into my room and she was sitting down on my phone looking through my messages. She says, "Damn. Just Sariah, Zaria, Matt, Kobe, and Lizzie. That's it. No more messages. You really are treating her right. Barely any texts to me at that. But that's because we've been around each other so much. And I got something for your birthday in October. I figured out what it was from Z!" "Bet and your birthday is next weekend, I knew that already. Didn't have to ask anybody. I'm just weird like that." She looked at me and just straight up died laughing. She elegantly walked up to me and put her arms around my neck. She then proceeds to use my neck as a damn lift mechanism to hop into my arms. "Damn that hurt. Now come here." I then move her to the bed and I start kissing her. She then gets up and says, "I want to be with you. I will do anything to be with you D. I'm really in love. My mind is just stuck on what should I do with Jai and how should I approach you about these problems when I know you're still dealing with Sa? It's a lot, but I'm really falling in love with you. Every moment I kiss you, I just feel a sensation in my body unlike any other. I just feel enlightened. You make me feel good D." "It's my job to make you feel comfortable and loved within my arms. If I see you want my affection, I give it. I just try my best to capture your aura and match it. I don't want to have shitty energy and you be pumped even though I'm not feeling the greatest. Even if I'm feeling straight depressed, I'm gonna change my mood to acclimate to yours." I say. "So what you're saying is, you're changing yourself for a person you aren't even with yet? D, you're not with me. You're with Sariah. Why do you feel as if you need to come to my level when I know you're hurting. I want to help. Don't try to cover up what's truly going on to try and make me feel wanted. I know that's what you truly want me to be is to feel wanted, but I know you are trying too hard. Be yourself for once, let the feelings out. Talk to me. You aren't a softie to me. I want you to vent to me. Please baby." I just hit the ground in tears and Aunt Kim enters the room. "What's wrong baby? Is he okay?" "Sariah been mistreating the hell out of him and now he's afraid to open up because the bitch called him soft." "Why haven't you broke up with her yet? She's made constant fun of you and you are always hurt. You already having to deal with enough baby. Just end it." "It's harder than you think TT. I've put so much effort into her and so much time and it's hard to let that go to waste because of what's going on. I've given her my last when I needed it. My last dollar I would give to her because I knew it would make her happy. That's all I wanted. Was to see a smile on her face and that give me reassurance that I was actually something. I never got that. I barely ever get told I love you. That shit hurts man. It would be hard to let her go. It's a hard decision but it's not. I'm sorry y'all." Zuri butted in and said, "You don't have to feel sorry about anything D. You've treated me like a queen and I'm not even your girlfriend. I don't deserve any of this babe. None of it at all. I know you ain't got it like that, but you'll put your heart before anything else and step in and pay for everything. I don't ask for that. You just do it. That's why I love you. Now get up and give me a hug. You are doing your best babe. I mean it." I get up off the floor from crying and Zuri and Aunt Kim give me a hug. What a mental breakdown that was. Let's see how the rest of the day goes.