*At the Meet & Greet*
I sit there with Matt & the rest of KLD signing autographs & taking pictures. The KLD fans (Deathwatchers) are like so awesome! They're so sweet, kind, & caring, like I couldn't imagine having better fans.
Then, Bry comes over & taps me on the shoulder.
"What's up Bry?" I ask turning around & facing Bry.
Bry shakes his hair out of his face, looks up at me, frowns slightly & says "I need to talk to you."
"Okay, well then let me finish signing these last few autographs & we'll go talk, okay?" I say.
"Alright." Bry says.
I finish the last autographs & pictures & walk over to Bry.
"Alright, now let's go talk." I say. Bry stands up & we go walk to the nearest park.
"Okay, so what did you need to talk to me about?" I ask.
"So, um, you know that thing that happened in 10th grade?" Bry asks slighly blushing a little.
"The unmentionable thing?" I ask.
"Yeah." Bry says quickly.
"What about it?" I ask.
"Well....it's true...i'm sure of it now." Bry says.
"No! No Bry! Is this like a joke or something right now?!" I ask aggervatedly.
"I'm serious, Patrice! But, I can't just keep going on & act like it didn't happen while you date someone else!!" Bry says.
"You were all for it after it happened, Bry! So why the fuck do you all of a sudden care?"
"Because, Patrice! What part of this aren't you understanding? I mean, i've made it so obvious!"
"How come you didn't feel how I felt when it happened? Why do you all of a sudden trust your instincts NOW?"
"You really want to know why? Becuase I fuckin' love you Patrice! That's why. & I can't just keep sitting around & waiting for you to finally break up with Matt so I can make you mine! I should be the one loving & holding you. I should be the one aming you smile & blush. I should be the one suprising you on tour. & most importantly I should be the one who has your heart, NOT Matt!" Bry says loudly.
"Look Bryan (Bry's real name, not Brian as in Syn) , i'm sorry but I don't feel the same way back. You can't just expect me to mope around when you told me you didn't love me in 10th grade. I had to move on & you should move on too. I'm not saying this to crush you, i'm saying this because I care." I say back loudly.
Then Bry leans in & kisses me, I try to push him away, but it doesn't work, he's too strong. I try to fight him away but he just countinues to kiss me.. I struggle to get away from him, then finally he stops kissing me & looks me in the eyes. I kick him square in the nuts & shake my head. He cries out in pain. Then I go on my little rampage...
"How could you fucking do that? You know i'm with Matt & you just kiss me like that? What the fuck is your problem?!" I yell at Bry.
"I'm sorry, okay? That's still not a reason for you to kick me in the fuckin nuts, Patrice!" Bry yells back.
"What the fuck is up with all this yelling?" Matt says walking over towards us.
"Ask Bry." I say.
Matt turns & raises an eyebrow at Bry.
"I kissed your girlfriend & told her how I felt about her. Then she got all mad & kicked me in the nuts." Bry says bending over in pain.
"Well I see why," Matt says. "I mean you kissed her, why would ou expect her to not do anything back?"
"You're not mad?" Bry asks.
"I would've been if she didn't do anything back. But since she did, I really don't give a fuck." Matt says with a slight hint of his Californian accent.
I laugh & Bry glares at me.
"What? You got to admit. That was kind of funny." I say.
Bry finally stands up straight & walks over to me & Matt.
"Couples these days." Bry says shaking his head playfully at us.
Then we make our way back towards the venue.
******THE NEXT DAY******
So...guess what?! We get to leave tour early, because this new band called "Fuck Your Life" (FYL), needed some promotion, so we gladly gave up our space for them. Right now, i'm at Bry & I's house chilling with Jeremy, since Bry is out doing something...He didn't tell me what it is..suspicions...suspicions...
"PATRICEY! LOOK WHAT I FOUND!" Jeremy says in a sing-son voice running down the stairs.
"What?" I ask.
Jeremy hands me a notebook with writing, I take a closer look & notice that it's my notebook....from 7th grade.........when I was madly "in love" with Jeremy.....
The letter read :
"Dear Jeremy,
if you are getting this, it means I'm dead, you found this, or i've finally got the courage to give this to you. Anyways, you should know, I love you. With all of my heart. But what kills me is that I know we can never be together, because I deny my feelings, we pretty much ignore each other, & you probably don't feel the same way. I never show any emotion on my face when we walk past each other without a single word. But it hurts, so much. Because I want you, I want to be with you, I want to tell you how amazing you are, I want to be the one who's there for you, who cheers you up when you're sad, who holds yo when you cry, who takes care of you when you're sick, who makes you laugh at serious times, who laughs at your jokes, & most of all, I want to be the one who tells you "I LOVE YOU", at any time. I love you Jeremy, you have my heart. Just promise me you won't break it.
Love,
Patrice. "
(A/N: This letter is not made up. I wrote it to a person, named Jeremy..but I still have it & probably will forever. He'll probably never change his mind, & neither will I)
A single throb of pain goes to my heart as I remember the feeling. ABSOLUTLEY HORRIBLE.
"Patrice. How come you never showed me this?" Jeremy asks.
"I don't want to talk about this, Jeremy." I say sternly.
"But what if I do?"
"Okay, fine! I used to be madly in love with you in 7th grade. You were all I could ever think & dream about. It was absolutley fuckin horrible. Everytime I convinced myself that I didn't love you anymore, you would do something that made me love you again."
"Was loving me really that bad?"
"OBVIOUSLY!"
"I'm sorry, Patrice."
"Whatever. Let's just forget this ever happened." I say attempting to rip the note, only to get it snatched by Jeremy.
"NO. I'm never forgetting this." Jeremy says with a look of determinationon his face.
"Fine. Have it your way. It doesn't mean anything anymore."
& that's when Jeremy completly snaps...
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