Unrealistic future「Mikasa x reader」✔

5.

|||Y/n L/n|||

"Ahh this was so sad... I feel despressed.." I cried out. I sounded like a depressed gathering. Let's just say it was often like how it was now after the end of movies when I watched them with these both.

"Ymir!" I cried out trying to clinge at her. As she pushed me away I let my frustration out, "Historia help me—Ymir is being mean againnnnn!" I phouted. Ymir rolled her eyes on it while I let my head fell on Historia's lap. I groaned, what a attitude she had again today.

"No wonder you're being clingy again, I hate it when you do that." Ymir said blunt. I eyed my eyes on her tilting my head towards the side. I knew to good that she reacted often like this. I  snuggled my head back into the blanket. "Such a meanie.." I muttered, I closed my eyes. I felt how Historia patted and apartly stroke over my head. I smiled slightly at the smilarity.

It felt warm and also welcoming as if I was home. Having her as a friend was most times really nice and funny while it was with Ymir............
complicated.

After all of this we laughed somehow every time about this. After some time I was standing in the kitchen with Historia since she said we couldn't eat what I had in the fridge. I mean.. I hadn't anything that would get us a food poisining. It wasn't that bad at least the durability was still durable—at least is it what I was setting my belive in...

Historia suggested that we could cook something healthy instead of eating fast food. I didn't found the idea bad, it was good. Ymir agreed too, it was to my own surprise actually.

As I let myself fall on a chair near the table I had to watch once gain how Ymir came to Historia. Saying something that embarrassed her and afterwards letting her blush in different tones of crimson. Not like it got on my nerves, nope I was so used to it.

After a while we started eating a good mix out of potato salat and f/f alright, f/f wasn't exactly that health promissing. At the moment were things existing I could care less about. After eating we well more like Ymir told us we would go to my room.

Sometimes I couldn't help asking myself why Ymir was sometimes so. Let's define it with the word 'nice'. It literally irritated me that she could be on her own kind nice. It wasn't still like a pure angel, but she was nicer towards me than to others.

I went upstairs with them we started laughing as Ymir tripped over her own feet. It was bright like the sun and warmed my heart. I felt home with these two, there were those moments who let myself forgot all of my problems, negative emotions and everything else. Just the here and now was existing. Many people knew those things, kind of feelings just situations.

Wether a confession that wasn't accepted—a heartbroke that got you in a state of embaressment where you can't even face the person anymore nor not being accepted. As long as humans are existing who accept each other showing you the positive sides of life in which you can get things out of you're head. In one evening a mood can change into the betterment.

Sometimes it's accectly what I need having those crazy humans around me. Letting me feel as if I am drunk. It can be bad and in the same way amusing. I knew I could talk with them over everything while from stupid jokes to more serious things. I could talk with Mikasa not about my feelings for her or my future.

Don't get me wrong wrong I love Armin, Eren and Mikasa as much as Historia and Ymir, but in some things it's just different with them. Ok over all, I still love Mikasa the most in a way that isn't frindship. To the moon and back how I love to say.

At first as I found out about it I was shocked, I didn't wanted it to be true. I mean who not, the feeling of loving you're best friend. The person you're in most cases most around talking about everything. The night to the day, the unluck to the luck, someone you could lay you're head on a shoulder, a someone that you could count on.

I simply didn't saw a future in it, only the darkness, no light. I wanna be at her side no matter what a kind of role I would have. I didn't cared about it I just wanted to be there for her truly until the bitter end.

My feelings for Mikasa were something special even if one sided. I never felt such a matured feeling towards someone in my past life. This all was different I had the one or other crush before I found out what I felt.

It was just in the end I never felt that strong how it was with Mikasa. I also didn't wanted to be a burden with my feelings towards her. Even though that I knew she wasn't exactly going to hate me nor abandon me for it.

I just didn't wanted to get in her way of her own happy end with whoever she would end up with. In the case it wouldn't work out with Eren. It hurted inside of me still had my heart hopes. Hopes that I would get a chance with her. While my mind told me right away that wasn't going to work.

There was nothing I could set my hopes in. And what did I listened to my mind, of course. Sounds stupid yes, but the fear of not being accepted still haunted me in my dreams. I just didn't wanted this friendship to change, it was perfect how it was at the moment.

Sometimes I just wanted to close my eyes forget everything and let it feel as if nothing changed at all.

As we reached my room after those little complicated funny distractions it felt almost sad. I opened the door to my room, the door to a chaos full of instructions and books about my job. I smirked at the sight, "home sweet home.." I said putting my hands on the hips. In the next moment it came to my mind why we came in here and my grin changed into a bad mood face.

Ymir sat down, "Now I want every single detail and I dare if you leave somehing out-" she said. Her attitude at the moment was sometimes really funny and sometimes—just nerve wrecking.

Though she was cut of by Historia her smile didn't fade. "Ymir! you can't demand something like that from her." She paused, "only if you want too." As she smiled at me I had gotten a bad, bad feeling. As if she was demanding it from me too only with the difference she had a threatening smile on her face.

"Alright.. if you two are want to hear it so badly." I sighed. The desperation in my voice wasn't overheard. Ymir set a devilish smirk on her face while Historia waited for my 'story telling'. The topic I wanted to avoid all the evening along. How bad it doesn't worked out..

I started telling them everything off from the part where we were officially at work. From the question if we should speak in private to the actually point where I left my shit's. At all Ymir and Historia followed the events from joy where they started laughing to awe. Everything in one big place collected.

"Wow you didn't really told her she shouldn't wet her pants cause of it, right?" Ymir started questioning me. I felt embarrassed, no that wasn't a word I could've described it with. My cheeks got warm and started shining in different colors of crimson. There was litterally nothing that could get me more in such a akwardness.

"I did Ymir, I did and I'm feeling stupid. It wasn't even meant to be get out of my mouth." I exclaimed. Ymir just started laughing at me while I felt irritated.

My eyes went wide at her gesture, "I'm proud on you, damn Y/n! you're turning litterally into a little devil." She said with a slight amusement in her voice. I felt disturbed in a way at her words. Sometimes she really had a bad influence on me.

I wanted to slap her so bad right now the sense out of her devilish freckles face. Also showing her the beautiful finger on the middle. I didn't even felt guilty at the thought of the urge, it was simply total awkward.

There are always those moments where something like this nessesecary to calm down the nerves. And this situation was one of those.

"So you and Mikasa are gonna practice something like how she asks Eren out for a date?" The blonde questioned with unsureness in her voice. I nodded at the question of Historia. "Yeah and I do not even know what got into my mind.." I told her as I locked eyes with her blue bright ones.

"Pick up lines, trying to flirt out of instinct, dirty thoughts?" Ymir listed putting her index finger on the mouth. I face palmed and shooked my head in deny. I stretched myself yawning long before even thinking about to correct her. "No exactly not more like my stupidness, bad humor and you're bad influence." I told her laughing.

After all it was kind of funny seeing how I failed in love now than seeing it as a total emberrassement. Still that doesn't meant I wasn't seeing it as a total emberrasment.