Unbreak My Heart

Kabanata 1

Kabanata 1
Call It What You Want

I glanced at the small clock at my table. 13:30. I sighed upon the realization that I haven't had my lunch yet.

And it's looking a lot like I won't be able to.

I clenched my fist and gently leaned against my chair, trying my best to get a bit of rest by shutting my eyes closed.

Hindi ko alam anong gagawin dahil mamaya na ang deadline para sa first draft ng aming project.

Lord...just...give me the strength to finish everything today.

Narinig ko ang mahinang pag-tawa ni Sari na nasa likod ko lamang. Alam kong ako ang pinagtatawanan niya. And if I see myself right now, I'd laugh at me too.

Because I am actually really doomed. It's gonna take me forever to finish it but there's nothing else I can do but to actually try to finish it.

Sari Lopez, one of my teammate here in Nexus, the biggest firm for producing and editing movies and videos in the country. And we're both video editors here. Sari and I, have been teammates for over a year already. We're a bit close since we live in the same condo unit, her unit, kaya alam ko na ang buong pagkatao niya. And that she's making fun of me now.

"Narinig mo na ba?" She asked, dumilat ako para balingan siya ng tingin. I continued massaging my temple while Sari smiled to me. Umiling ako dahil hindi ko alam anong narinig ko dapat.

Sari moved closer to me to whisper.

"Kathy and Sir Lemarc.... are getting na married daw.." She whispered to my ears. I wanted to laugh because really? Kathy and Sir Lemarc?

"Talaga?" I asked, gulat parin sa ikinwento ni Sari. Kathy is like what, a year younger than me and she's getting married? And then there's me...whose never had a boyfriend, ever. Gusto kong tawanan ang sarili ko.

I know it's my decision rin because there's really no one I can see myself with. Mula college, everybody backed off me and maybe I slowly got used to the idea of people backing off of me that I never really got to build a deep connection with anyone else.

Or maybe I'm just really a joke.

Sari nodded. "Eh Ikaw, girl?"

Inirapan ko si Sari. She's been pushing me to do Tinder and Bumble for me to finally have my first relationship. And I've been trying to ignore her for the longest time. Siya lang talaga yung masyadong excited na magka-boyfriend ako.

"Virgin.." She joked. I pushed her computer chair away from me.

Malakas na humalakhak si Sari sa naging reaksyon ko. I mocked her laughing.

What people don't understand with my decision to stay single is that I'm just trying to save myself for the one. I have nothing against people who does things right before marriage but I was raised in family that believes in the idea of celibacy and the sacrament of marriage.

My brother, who has been recently ordained as a priest, have always told me that it pays to wait for the right person. Because you're not just actually saving yourself physically but also saving yourself from all the heartbreaks these unmatured relationship gives.

Sometimes you just gotta give it time. And it'll come to you. And I held onto that.

I diverted my attention back to the story board and returned to my work. Ilang minuto ang lumipas ay narinig kong bumukas ang pinto. My head automatically turned to the glass door.