TRIGGER WARING!: Mention of past toxic family, self-doughts, and dysphoria.
Virgil P.O.V.
When we woke up, it was a little quiet, I couldn't smell any of the others, wich was not a good sign. I looked down and-yup! I bled into my underwear. As long as it's not on the bed, I'm fine. Thank god it didn't get on the bed. "MOVIE NIGHT!" My eardrums burst from Pattons.... screeching? Anyway, it was not good to just wake up to. "Yo, why are you so loud?" I ask, holding onto my ears, he was very loud when elated, wich is why I'm thinking it has something to do with "It's movie night!" Yup, it's movie night. "Can you come to the movie night, tonight kiddo? Please?" He asks, I never really went to them before, but I guess. "Sure, just text me what I need to bring! Now you guys should go to work." I say, knowing that they all have jobs and I don't. "Okay kiddo! Thanks! But, today is our day off, it's Sunday, wich means, cartoon morning!" Yes! I love cartoons! "Great! I should probably get the blankets and pillows, right?" I say/ask. "Sure, kiddo!" I go upstairs and get Romans, Logans, Pattons, and my blankets and pillows, Patton would always make a pillow and blanket fort. He was so fun! "I got all the stuff!" I say, super excited for the cartoons. "Okay, kiddo! Let's get this BLANKET FORT!" He says again with that elated tone, now not as bad as it was before, because I was expecting it. "Roman! Can you help me?" He asks, knowing Roman was his best bet with help, Roman could never say no to Patton, Patton yo him was adorable, but to me, he very hot.
~time skip brought to you by lillypadton~
We were finally going to watch some toons! I never liked how annoying the voices of cartoon characters were, so I had my headphones in, I was listening to 'say no to this' from the Alexander Hamilton musical. I love that song. I start to sing to the lyrics, without knowing. "Don't know how to say no to this~ I won't say no to this~ Say no! I don't know how to say no to thi-" "Nice voice, kiddo!" Patton says, making me blush, no-one has ever heard me sing before, but now, everyone has. "S-sorry! I-i-i uhm uh-" "It's fine, kiddo!" Patton cuts me off-again! "I don't know how to respond-s-sorry!" (I reallydon'tknow how to make him respond, sorry) "Kiddo, it's fine! Maybe say......Okay?" "Oh! Okay." "There ya go, kiddo!" He was so sweet! "Thanks, Hon-ba-Patton!" I say, oblivious to what I should be calling him now that we are all dating. "You can call me anything, kiddo, and No problem!" "Thanks, b-babe." I say, nervous about how he will react. "No problem, kiddo!" He was so kind to me. Sometimes I wonder why he even loves me......I don't like to think about that, but it happens.......alot. I don't know why, it made no sense to me at all! He shows me so much love.......more than I love myself. It hurts to think this, but.........My mind just goes there sometimes. I wish I was normal. I wish I was born with the things I've been longing for since I was twelve. I wish I could just buy it-I mean I can-but-It takes alot of time and money to get just top surgery, let alone both top and bottom. It sucks that I couldn't even get the surgery when my mom was still helping me, my mom was the only person who accepted me in my family, my dad said it was an illness, my brother said it was a phase, and my sister was heartbroken, she wanted a little sister, she would try to change me. She would buy me dresses and makeup, the only makeup that I ware, is my eyeshadow, to cover up how I don't sleep. It was hard to do things when I was constantly being forced to be something that I'm not.
A/N(please read):
Sorry it was short, I've been busy with my school work and things. It was my first day of remote learning in high-school, and I have to go in real school next week, so I might not make as many chapters, and they will be shorter. I have an exam coming up next Friday, so I need to study. Sorry.
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FanfictionSorry the cover art sucks :P WARNING INCLUDES Janus homophobia transphobia trans Virgil made up side (the first chapter will describe him) dark sides being good child abuse past sexual abuse misgendering use of dead name cussing selm harm/S.I.B...