Hate or Love

0. 13

Messing Up

"Vijie! Vijie! Jie! Please!"

Oh my Gosh! Just when you decided to let them go, they'll come crawling back. Okay. What the fudge is going on?!

I fastened my speed, hoping that my freaking legs would keep up with my racing mind.

I swear! Since this incident this year, I've been cursing a lot.

"Vijie! I'm calling you! What the fuck?!"

I feel someone grabbed my hand halting me from walking.

"R- Ryan?" So it's true? He's really the one who's chasing me?!

"Why are you running away from me?!" I stiffened, Shock by his harsh tone.

"I-- " Wait.

There's something wrong here.

What the actual Fuck?!

"You! What is your problem?! After you avoid and ignore me for freaking 1 month! You have the audacity to talk to me?!"

I'm enrage- No. I'm effing furious!

After all that he've done and made me feel, he's just approach me like nothing happened?! I don't think so!

"Hey Vijie. Calm down, I'll explain okay? Let me explain please."

I look at him expressionless. I don't know how I should feel right now. I'm confused, frustrated! I feel so stupid! Damn!

Closing my eyes, I decided to just let him say whatever he pleases. At least that way, I could never regret a thing because I listened to him.

Taking a deep breath.

"Fine. Do whatever you want, I'll spare you 5 minutes. "

Crossing my arms I look at him, making sure concealing every feeling I currently feel.

I watch as he look at me, scrunching his eyebrows and furrowing it. A gesture he do whenever he's thinking.

A solid one minutes passed and he's still not speaking-- I decided to remind him.

"4 minutes left Stylin."

I made sure to make my boice sound so icy, cold, emotionless. A foreign tone from me.

But what he said next taken me aback, dumbfounded.

"W- What?" I said almost a whisper.

"I said," he took a step forward, invading my own space, leaning his face down until his only an inch away before speaking. Making sure that every word he say, his lips would graze mine. "I broke up with Eunice."

It took me a few minutes to answered,

"H- Huh? Wha- Why?" I can't comprehend a thing, honestly? I'm too confused!

"Well, For starters. Let's say, It's not the same. I realize, I wasn't really inlove with her, And I'm so stupidly inlove with someone else. I realize it month ago. "

He's looking at me with a very intense gaze. His eyes seems like it's piercing thru me. Reading every thought I have and examing every nook of my body. I feel so conscious!

"What do you mean?" Silently thanking my own self for not stuttering anymore. He took a step forward that made me step back, the process continued until I hit the wall.

Dang! This is embarrassing! Looking around, Conscious If someone is watching us. Thankfully, We're in the dark side of the hallway, There's no one around, but it doesn't mean no one would come!

What the eff is he thinking?!

"Move Aside!" I tried pushing him but it backfired. He caught my arms flinging it upwards trapping above my head while cornering me with his free hand on the wall.

"You said, I could do anything I want right?" His tone made me gulp. What the?! His dangerously close! And his smell is engulfing me! Taking me into a daze, I can't escape to!

I lost any logical thinking I should have and what comes out my mouth, I don't have any control over anymore!

"W- What?" Wincing when I heard my own voice. It sound so little almost like a whimper! Fudge!

A gasp escape me when I feel him move closer to the nook of my neck, Until he sniff it and taking his time before I feel a wet thing tracing a spot, I am so much sensitive to!

"R- Ry! W- What are.. y- you doing-- Ugh!" I quickly bite my bottom lips to prevent any sound escaping my mouth from what he is doing!

Gosh! How does it comes this way?! I should be mad at him! Not whimpering and moaning under him!

"S- Stop! Le-- Ughh!"

He didn't listen instead he bite the skin, nibbling it to the point that it would leave a mark! Gosh!!

I tried wiggling away from him but with his every move, I lost my strength and just let him do what he wants.

He trailed his way to my ear with kisses, before he nibbled it too, making me close my eyes involuntarily. Gosh! What is wrong with this man?!

"I'm taking back what's mine Vijie. I'm taking you back, now."

After he said that it's like he turn a switch on me.

When I decided that I'm already letting him go, He would come back and what?! Confuse me with his actions again?! Damn! Why am I letting him?!

Using the remaining strength I had, I removed his hold on me. Yanking my hands away, before I slapped him hard.

His face turn to the other side. My tears escaped my eyes and before I knew it, I'm already crying.

"How dare you!"

Before he could even say a thing, I already sprinted away from him. Composing myself while doing so.

How dare that man mess with my feelings?!

Am I a toy?!

Darn him! Argh!!