Appa??!!

Chapter 4

It's still Sunday....the fuck
I've felt like this day is never ending.

After giving Taehyung a bath I'm sure my neighbours think I'm abusing the child with the amount to screaming and crying he did...but when I was giving him a bath is when I realised he had bruises all over his body. I was left shocked would Stella really do something like that..'no she can't have I don't sleep with heartless shit heads like that. I tried to ask the boy about it but all he did was cry, I wanted to put some medicine on the dark bruises but I could find anything in the apartment. I was now getting the boys in bed after a VERY long day which was full with me cleaning and trying my best to look after them, let's just say it wasn't amazing.

I had Namjoon and Hoseok as well as the twins sleeping in the guest bedroom whilst me and Kookie stayed in my room. Kookie was sleeping at the time but thoughts upon thoughts would jump into my mind about the kids.

I had to buy some more clothes for the boys as the clothes Stella gave we're too small for them now as well as their shoes, I needed to buy medication for Tae as well as book a doctors appointment for them all to ensure they are all healthy, I also notice the boys don't eat as much as they should other than Kookie who eats the right amount for his age but the rest look thinner than they should be. I took a note I wanted to call Stella to ask her about the bruises and tell her my concerns for OUR children as well  having to get them into school and work at the same time, fuck what am I going to do.....I have work tomorrow should I call in sick ? Should i call for a babysitter ?

I slept on my thoughts that night and hoping that I would wake up and everything would be fine the next morning but it wasn't, I woke up to Kookie crying in my bed I picked but my baby and took him to the bathroom where I cleaned his face and gave him a good bathe before changing his DISGUSTING diaper and finally taking him into the living room. I need a new house I thought to myself one big enough for my children and me to live in one. I started preparing breakfast which was omelet until a felt a tug in my shorts, I look down to look at my cute Jimin baby rubbing his wet red sore eyes. I pick the four year old up and he instantly buried his head into the my neck. That's when it hit me, I'm a dad a dad to five beautiful children.

Work didn't matter to me anymore all I wanted to do was protect and care for these children as much as I can, I wanted to give them all the love I had and spoil them as much as I could. My mind filled with thoughts of a big family house with children running up and down giggling through, children have never been for me but right now everything  had changed I know it will be hard but I really wanted to try and be a nice and amazing  father.

"Chim.." Jimin looked up at me suprised by the sudden nickname looking happily at me with a large grin on his face " can you go sit on the couch whilst I wake your lazy brother up please" the boy simply nodded as I place him down and made my way to the bedroom, there I witness namjoon sleeping normally with Hoseok cuddling his side and Taehyung on top of the boy practically suffocating him. I chuckle at the sight, I really wanted to get close to all my children individually especially my eldest son, with that in mind I keep a reminder of how to keep a soft motherly tone when speaking to the boys.

I walked towards the bed and gently pick up Taehyung and pulled him into my lap, the boy moved comfortable onto it whilst I tried to wake him up.
"Tae please wake up it's time for breakfast" after whispering the same thing to the boy he finally woke up and looked at me still angry at me for giving him a bath. I laugh to his expression and gave him a kiss on the cheek which he grabbed onto me and hugged me back, I was fairly shocked to his sudden movement but rubbed his back and hugged his back.
"Tae why not you freshen up whilst I wake up your lazy hyungs" he laughs at my statement and nods going straight to the bathroom. One down two to go.

I grabbed onto Hoseok and throw his little body into the he air and catch him whilst listening to him laughing and giggling until I snuggle close to the boy and give him a small smile "morning appa" he says followed by a yawn " morning my Hobi can you go and freshen up breakfast is ready" he agrees and runs off I watch him and smile at him not knowing my eldest son was watching me interact with his brothers. I turned to look at Namjoon who was sitting in bed looking at me

"Sleep well kiddo?" I asked whilst I ruffle his messy hair and only retrieved an emotionless expression
"Appa...." he says looking down at his lap I hum in response wanting to know what got the boy looking so blue in the morning "your not like eomma you actually care about us..."what came out of his mouth shocked me and Broke me apart...I can't go work now I have to stay home and protect them, take care of them, make them feel love after hearing him say those words
"Joon your with appa now I want you to know I love you ok. I'm nothing like eomma I'm much better, if you need anything or have anything on your mind tell appa I will help you" I tell the boy bringing him into a hug before scooping him up and taking him into the bathroom helping him freshen up - the house was full of dimples and laughter coming from Namjoon and I loved it.

He looked after his brothers and grow up too quick I want him to know that I'm here for him that I'm here for them all.

Appa loves you all