Appa??!!

Chapter 33

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" do you love eomma?" The boy said with puppy eyes looking straight at me....

Shit

The thing is she was my everything...I do miss her...she was one of the most prettiest women I have ever met, don't know if I'm confused with love or lust but I do feel like I have something for her...

Well HAD something for her

I've never been much of a player yes I've been with a couple of girls but Stella was the only real thing I had ....do I miss her...yes....am I jealous she has someone else 100%

But the bottom of my gear u could never forgive her for the hell she put these children MY children. Let's not talk about the physical and mental abuse these children have and the way these child's struggle to make healthy friendship with their peers. For this reason I would never forgive her.

" I did love her baby....I did" I said smiling bopping his nose

"Did?" he questioned making me laugh " yup Appa did love her but now I love love you guys, and that's all I will ever love" I said rocking him until he slept.

I left Namjoon to sleep when downstairs to do some cleaning and cooking for tonight and that's when it hit me.....what happens with my romantic life now? Don't get me wrong I'm not SUPER HORNY or anything but....I don't even have time for myself forget about being with someone. My thoughts were getting a bit too loud for my mind, I find myself on the sofa relaxing and drifting into a sleep....

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It's finally the weekend - I used to love the weekend but now it's full of children....

I woke up early and did all the cleaning and cooking before getting the boys us and into the breakfast table " sooooo I'm thinking why don't we all go to the park ? It's nice weather and we can all have some fun !" I say happily making Kookie and the twins happy
But namjoon and Hobi didn't seem as excited as them more nervous then anything else.

I looked at the two boys and finally asked " are you too both ok with going to the park ?" And watched there response. Hoseok looked at Namjoon with a worried expression and Namjoon stayed quite for a bit until he finally nodded and said " yes Appa it sounds fun!" Grabbing onto Hobis hand and giving it a tight squeeze, I can see the anxiety running through Hobis face.
I smiled and pulled Hobi into my arms giving him some comfort not wanting him to be scared or worried and tell him how much fun where all going to have!

After cleaning up I got all the boys ready and getting Kookie into his stroller, I packed us some lunches and we finally headed out. When getting there I told Jimin to hold onto Hoseoks hand and Namjoon looked after the little devil Tae, the boys went off to play leaving me and Kookie to find a nice spot for the picnic. I placed the mat down and watch the Kookie play with his cars, I took out my note pad and started making some notes on the boys behaviours. I've came up with a new plan ! I'm going to note down how the boys are as individuals so I can help them grown within them selfs