Appa??!!

Chapter 20

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It's a bit emotional 🥺

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"Yoongi do you ever stop and think why do men have nipples? Like I get why women have them....but WHY MEN!" Yes....these are the questions that come out of Jin hyung mouth, how are we related again...

I went out shopping to get some ingredients for dinner and anything else to help the boys feel better, and for some reason I thought it was a GREAT idea for Jin hyung to come along and help with the shopping whilst Lisa offered to take care of the kids whilst we were gone.

"Hyung what else do we need" I looked at him whilst he was getting a couple of other things and placing them into the overly filled trolly "oh just a couple more thing Yoongi that's all we're almost done" he said smilingly, I didn't want to say it but I'm so tired right now. The children should be my mine priority but the only thing on my mind is sleep, I haven't had a decent night of sleep since they got here.....it's been almost a month damn...time really does fly right

But not when your having fun...

"Yoongi - ah you ok?" Jin hyung said to me with a slight concern in his tone "Yh I'm fine hyung" after that he didn't say much and we continue moving around the store picking stuff up every so often then finally got to the till and paid for the items, the car journey home was full of random talk coming out of hyung mouth but I just couldn't be bothered to listen and my expression didn't try hiding that.

We finally make it home and hyung helps me get the bags into my house " Lisa where back" hyung called out. Lisa came out with jungkook in her arms rocking the wailing child trying to calm him down. I released a deep sigh and walked up and took him from her arms " here Noona I'll take it from here, hope they weren't too much whilst I was gone" she simply smiled at me and shook her head " oh Yoongi not at all I have children of my own, they can be shit heads every so often but I deal with it" she laughed. I rocked kookie a couple of times till he fell as sleep then placed the boy onto the couch, before I could sit down to take a break I hear another cry coming from the stairs " APPA!!" Yup that's my loud Hobi screaming , I got up to check on the kid befor Noona stop me " I'll check on him don't worry Yoongi" I was happy noona went to check on Hobi but unfortunately there was no time for me to relax I still had a lot of things to do. The shopping needed putting away the house was a mess and dinner wasn't made for the boys, not only that I still have to pick up the boys medication from the pharmacy and had to bathe them and take care of them. Let's not forget about my work....I've been neglecting my work for a while now since the boys came into my life. The day seems to go so quick I just don't seem to have time to do the things I love, like writing music or producing it .

It's got me thinking, since the children came into my life my life's been very....stressful...difficult....do I almost regret having them in my life...? I'm not sure my thoughts and feelings are all mixed up I can't even think straight these days

I was putting the shopping away and my mind was running wild, all these thoughts and feelings of stress and anxiety. The constant feeling of me neglecting my children and almost the regret of having these children....god I feel like I'm going to pass out any minute now. But just then I feel a strong tug from behind