For You I Will

Start of Something New

Gwen was overwhelmed and even that was an understatement. Today was the day she moved in with John Shelby. John insisted since the word was now out that she was carrying his child. Today was the day they also delivered the news to Katie, Everett, Clyde, and Margaret. Life hit her in the face when she woke up this morning as she came to the realization that she was about to look after five children. She knew the Shelby children her whole life but what if this was different because she was with their dad?

She sighed throwing the last picture of hers in the box on the bed. Gwen really did not have a lot. A few things that belonged to the family, pictures of Danny and herself, her clothes, her makeup. But nothing that could not be moved within a couple of hours. John promised her she could keep her flat since it was gifted to her and it was really the nicest thing she ever owned. She felt no need to keep it if she lived with John but arguing with John Shelby was like arguing with a tree. Gwen smiled as she heard John yelling from downstairs directing the one or two Peaky men, he hired for help to move Gwen's boxes. Kissing a picture of Danny and herself as children she put it in the box, sealing it closed. The box was rather light, and she lifted it carrying herself out of the room to get downstairs to help John before he had a stroke. Appearing at the top of the stairs with the box, John noticed her but not without noticing the box.

"What is wrong with you?" John sighed as he ran up the stairs. He kissed the top of her head pulling the box from her hands. "You are pregnant love."

"I am pregnant, John." Gwen giggled. "Not broken. A box won't hurt him."

"Well," John started. He carried the box under his arm and wrapped Gwen in his other arm as he slowly guided her down the stairs. "We can never be too careful, now can we?"

"I imagine that when the children were born that you never let them fall." Gwen smiled.

"Not at all. The two oldest especially. Never hit the floor until they could walk." John replied. There feet touched the landing by the front door. Just as quickly as Gwen had unpacked everything it was all now being packed up to be unpacked just across the dirt road. The fact that she was moving in with John Shelby gave her butterflies. She had never lived with a man. Just family. "Is that it?"

"That's it. This is so unreal." Gwen reminisced. "We are really doing this. We are going to be a family and I am going to be a mum. A Shelby baby...a son."

"Don't flatter yourself love." John winked at her. That man's sense of humor would be the death of him. He was always the one to find a joke even in the darkest of times.

"You should feel blessed, John Shelby. After all those years of chasing me, you finally caught me." Gwen teased. John jokingly rolled his eyes at her but not before kissing her on the cheek. "If it weren't for me you would have been married off to some crazy or Lizzie Stark for that matter."

"That is not true. I would stomp my foot down like little Katie when she does not get her way. No one tells John Shelby what to do." John said oozing with confidence. At that Gwen rolled her eyes and pulled the door open.

"Lead the way. They are your little army and if I just stroll into their first, they might be confused. We got to deliver this easy." Gwen sighed nervously. Gwen stepped out the door with John trailing close behind. Gwen bit her lip and played with her hands and of course it did not go without John noticing.

"Why are you so nervous? It is fine. They love you already and they have known you their whole bloody lives." John smiled at her. It still did not make anything better. Gwen thought she would never become a mum. Would she even be a good one to their son? And if not, how did he expect her to be a good mum to his kids?

"John...it is just...I never thought I would be a mum. Our child will be here within five months or a little more and then you are giving me four. What if I am a horrible mother?" Gwen asked him concerned.