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they sit in her empty
barren house and
don't say a word
her mom is at work
both of them have
too much to say
but no way of saying it
he finally tells her
that he can't stay for
very long this time and
she can't help but think
he means he can never
stay at all
so he buys her flowers
and takes her on their first
real date and takes her home
and kisses her at the doorstep
but then carries her upstairs
and fucks her in her room
he's still there when she wakes
up but he has to go at nine
they countdown the minutes
the seconds
with kisses on jawlines and
hands around waists
he's still there when she wakes
up but it hurts more watching him
leave
a week later the flowers
he bought her start to wilt
and she breaks the vase
they're dying in
she looks at the flowers
lying on the concrete
they're still sitting there
at midnight
it's cold outside
her hands are pale
and she's shaking
she hugs her knees into
her chest and stares at
the dying tulips
she takes her first
ever sip of alcohol
and all of her bones
start to shatter
inside of her
and broken glass
sits at the pit of her stomach
and rattles against
her porcelain skin
she thinks of her mom
then of michael
she takes her second
ever sip of alcohol
and decides she likes it