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"Do you really think my parents didn't love each other?" He said in a calm tone. It was calm and cold at the same time. He didn't add any stress in talking.

We were still staring at where Ghel and Gerard headed off. We stood there for minutes envelop in silence. I couldn't look at him and I'm guessing he couldn't look at me.

"Yah" I was hesitant to say that. I already hurt him earlier and I don't want to hurt him now. "If they did really love one another, there wouldn't be another person involved"

"You know what I think about my parents.." He looked down and he gave the ground a tired smile "My mom loves him but he already loved her."

The past tense form of the verb can bring out the pain in a word.

I bit my bottom lip. I couldn't imagine of having to witness the tragic turn of your parent's love story. It must've been hard for him being the only one who knew.

"I've been thinking...when my older sister was born, maybe at that time my dad loves my mom. When I was born, his love might have started to fade. It means my younger sister is a  result of temptation or to be short...for pleasure." There was something in his voice I can't point out.

"Don't say that...You don't know what he feels"

He looked up to me with sadness evident in his eyes.

"Maybe you're right, about...I - or we weren't able to satisfy him"

"What I said isn't true" This is my opportunity to take back what I said earlier "It just slipped out of my mouth"

"Nahhh, You're only saying that because you said it...That's your opinion on this situation of mine...so partly that's the truth"

Geezz point taken....

"Exactly, What I think might be true but it's what I think it is...It could mean the opposite to you right?" If you guys are not seeing it clearly...I'm trying my best to twist this positively

He didn't talk instead he grabbed my wrist and started walking away from the house. I didn't know where we were heading. All I can think about is how gloomy the night looks and how it matches his aura today.

He stopped in front of a car - His car - and pushed me inside the passenger seat. All I can do is let myself be push.This isn't kidnapping right? He slammed the door while I watch him turn around to go to the driver's seat. When he entered, he gave out a deep sigh.

"Look, before I start...I want to apologise for touching you or the way I acted outside of your house. My actions earlier were unacceptable for a guy" He said while holding the steering wheel. He didn't turn on the engine so I'm guessing we're going to just sit down and talk.

"I should be the one to say sorry to you. My way of using words can actually hurt and I forget about that every time" I said trying my best to sound sincere

He laughed a little which made me released a laugh. Then we started laughing continuously. I think we both realized how formal we were trying to apologize to each other.

"So...what about your father?  What about him you wanted to tell me?" I said when the laughs started to fade. I want to make it up to him by listening to what he says

"Forget about it..." He smiled at me while he played with his hoodie " I don't want you to get stress about it"

"You're family's problem does not stress me out" I looked at him with a dull look. "Ghel's engagement is what stresses me out now and I'm trying not to show it"