my life

Day 4

3rd August 2020

I woke up excited about the movie with Harrison, and I was just about to text him to ask when he wanted to meet up to go and watch the movie when I got a text from him:
'Hey Mol, sorry I'm ill and my parents want me to get better before the wedding in a few weeks... I can't go to that movie:( Hx'
I replied back straight away, the smile slipping off my face "oh ok"
" I feel like I've really upset you!! Molly, I'm so sorry really I am!"
" I have to go"
" ok. Come around later? I'd like to talk to you about something .. :) x"

I put my phone down, and then paused and picked it up again, this time texting Alex: "Hey! Do you fancy coming to see a movie with me today?"
Alex immediately answered: "yess!! When?"
"Now?"
"Kk be there in 5 xx"
Woah, I thought, slightly confused. I know me and him are now seemingly best friends but two XX's?

Like promised, Alex was here in a matter of a few minutes, and I smiled when I saw him. He looked so enthusiastic, so happy...
For some reason I felt guilty not telling Harrison that I was going to the cinema with Alex. Should I feel guilty?

When we arrived at the cinema, we booked to see the new sci-fi movie, and, after buying cokes and popcorn, settled down to watch the movie. As the trailers began to roll, Alex put my hand around me and pulled me closer.

I tried to relax and watch the movie, but then he asked, "So did you and Harrison have an argument? That's funny. You seemed pretty close to him when you were smooching the other day..." I wriggled free of him then and glared. " No we did not have an argument," I informed him.
"He's just ill, so he couldn't make it to the movies..." I said, and then I paused and muttered, "And not here for our first 'kind of' date.."

" Is that why you're on a date with me instead? Because I'm really glad that you could make it.." I opened my mouth to interrupt, but Alex just continued, shushing me, "Shh, I told myself that I would tell you as soon as we were here. I think... That I'm beginning to see why Harrison like you... I like you. A lot. Okay, I've always liked you, but I wanted it to go well for you and Harrison. So I encouraged it. And now I like you so much I can't look at you without liking you."

With that, I stood up. " I shouldn't be here," I told him, grabbing my bag. " I'm sorry Alex. There's one thing, which you're right about there: I like Harrison. Which is why I can't stay here with you."

And then I ran all the way to Harrison's house, where I ran into his arms and cried for ages. "Mol it's okay. It's okay."
" But it's not H."
"Yes, it is. Alex explained it all to me over text. He likes you and you went to the movies with him. And he told you he likes you and you like me. And you told him that."
"But."
" And that's all that matters. You said you liked me. Thank you, Molly. I think you should go back, have a shower, relax and then could you come back here later? I have something to ask you..."
"You're the best Harry. You know that, right?"
Our eyes locked together and electricity passed between us, as he leaned in, to hug me again and I held onto him, not wanting to let go.