I'm all in

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The last few months had nearly killed Emily. She watched from afar as JJ and Will became closer and closer. She still spoke to JJ but not as much as she used to which made her sad but the thing that ruined her was that she never saw the blonde anymore. Not anytime besides work and even then she felt like she hadn't actually seen her. Emily wasn't the type to beg for someones attention even if she really wanted it. Everyone on the team noticed how hurt Emily was and how cold she had become, everyone except the younger blonde agent. The older woman had always been reserved when it came to what she felt but she had come to open up a little more with Penelope during this time.

Penelope walked over to Emily's desk and tapped her shoulder "Hey love! I was thinking that tonight we could have a girls night!!" Emily looked up and gave a soft half smile to her friend "Just you and I?" she questioned while swiveling around in her chair to face Penelope better. "I was thinking maybe we could...ask..JJ?" Penelope gave an awkward shrug just as the blonde that had been named rounded the corner, "Ask me what?" JJ came up to the two of them and smiled, Penelope widened her eyes and looked to Emily as if asking permission to invite her. JJ turned to Emily and tilted her head slightly, something she always did when she was confused which Emily had grown to love. Emily stood and cleared her throat "Do you uh...do you wanna have a girls night with us?" She looked into the blueberry eyes of the blonde, "I'd love to! I haven't seen much of you guys lately so I would love to. However, I do have one question." Penelope nodded "What is it?" JJ smirked slightly "We are gonna get hammered right?" Emily laughed softly and nodded "Of course. I know I could use a night like that." JJ smiled and chuckled, she had missed the oh so contagious laugh of the brunette. Penelope clapped excitedly "Yay! My place at 9?" she questioned, the two in front of her nodded in agreement before their beloved tech specialist ran off.

JJ looked at Emily who was already looking back at her. She always seemed to find happiness looking into the dark pools of Emily's eyes, a feeling she'd never get tired of. Emily was the first to speak as she sat back down, "How have you been?" She questioned as she patted the seat next to her in hopes that she would win just a little time with the younger agent, JJ sat down and crossed her toned legs. "I'm okay, I uhm..I moved in with Will." her hands fidgeted as she refused to make eye contact. Emily studied her behavior and wondered why JJ didn't seem as excited about this news as she should be, so she put her hands on JJ's wrist and gave a small loving squeeze. "I am really happy for you, you must be very excited." Emily forced the words out even though they burned worse than the strongest liquor possibly could. The blonde brushed a strand of her hair away and looked up. "no yeah, I am excited. I'm happy." The older woman nodded "That's really good JJ.." she gave one final squeeze before standing. "Well I guess I'm gonna go get caught up on paperwork. I'll see you tonight JJ." She started to walk away before stopping and turning to look at her, "You look good." Emily gave a soft smile before walking away to retrieve her papers.

Making it through the day had been easy for JJ because she knew that at the end of it she would be able to spend time with two of the people who meant the world to her. The guilt of not being around and not knowing what was going on in her friends lives killed JJ. She hated that she had lost time with them because of all the time she had been spending with Will. Will was a great guy but he didn't make her heart flutter like it did when they had first met. She had been excited to live with him in hopes that it would make her feel whole but it didn't. Will always wanted JJ to cook dinner with him and watch romantic movies with him or to do sappy things that yes she also enjoyed but didn't want to do with him. She sighed and thought back to how she had felt when Emily laughed and how much she had missed hearing it. It of course wasn't her full laugh which was quite disturbing yet hilarious. JJ thought back to the first time she had heard the squeaky snort come from Emily's mouth and how surprised she had been, she chuckled out loud at the thought and continued on her paperwork as well.

The day had gone by quickly for the three BAU women and finally, it was time for them to go to their own homes until it was time to get wasted together. Emily had gone home quickly to one take a power nap knowing she was not getting any sleep and then decided to take another shower. She pulled on some mid-wash jeans and a baby blue sweater with some white vans before checking the clock, it wasn't quite time yet but she went ahead and started her way to Penelope. JJ had gone home to get ready and to tell Will where she would be for the night. She gave him a short kiss before heading out the door.

By the time Penelope was done getting out the blankets, pillows, movies and games she heard a knock at the door and ran to get it. Emily smiled and held up two bags "I brought the food!" Penelope gave a small squeal and took a bag as the two of them walked in. Emily looked around then back to Penelope and smiled as her friend pulled her into a soft hug. "Em, are you sure you're gonna be okay tonight?" Emily furrowed her brows and nodded "yeah Pen, I'm great. Why do you ask?" Penelope gave a sad smile before sitting on the couch, "I know you and JJ haven't been as close lately and I can see how much it hurts you. Just because I'm not a profiler doesn't mean I can't see the obvious." Emily started to open her mouth to talk just as someone knocked on the door. She shot up to reveal JJ in some sweatpants and a hoodie. Emily smiled and looked to JJ's hands "Oh my God you brought a lot of booze." the two laughed together. "Duh, I thought we wanted to get shit faced?" Penelope had walked up to see what Emily meant and giggled "Oh this is so incredibly epic." Emily smiled and took one of the bags from JJ and set it on the apartment counter right next to the food. JJ took a big whiff of the air and smiled "Is that Korean??" Emily nodded "Of course it is. It's what we used to always get when we first started doing these. I even got the bulgogi you like." JJ squealed and threw her arms around Emily's neck, hugging her tight. "God! Emily Prentiss you are the best!!" The older woman laughed and hugged the smaller woman back, savoring the moment.

The girls ate the food and slowly began to work their way into the bag of booze that JJ had bought. Penelope was the first one to get completely wasted. She was singing and dancing around while the girls finished their food. Emily laughed at the new dance moves her light weight friend was showing her before she too stood and started to dance around a little bit before pulling JJ up to dance too. The girls enjoyed themselves and began drinking more and more before the was much else left.

Penelope had eventually crashed on the bed in her room as the other two watched a movie together. Emily played with JJ's hair while the younger was sprawled out with her head resting on Emily's leg. Emily looked down and took in all the sharp features of her face before finally meeting her eyes. JJ looked up at her and smiled then whispered "hey em..." Emily brushed a hair out of her face "yeah?" JJ then sat up and looked at Emily with sad eyes "Why did you get so distant with me when I told you about Will?" Emily blushed lightly and tried to find the words to answer the question. "I uh..I don't know JJ." JJ huffed and leaned close to Emily's face, close enough that Emily could feel her hot breath against her lips, close enough to make every nerve in Emily tingle. "I think that it is becauseee..because you don't like him." Emily looked into JJ's blue eyes and leaned in. She leaned in and kissed JJ softly but before JJ had time to react Emily had jolted backwards, wide eyed. "Oh my God...Oh my GOD. JJ...I.." Emily got off the couch and ran to grab her keys that had set on the table. JJ jumped up as fast as she could as drunk as she was and stumbled a bit. "Wait...Emily wait." Emily refused to look back and ran to the door and with a soft voice mumbled a sorry before running out the door. JJ knew in the current state she was in that she couldn't chase after her but instead resorted to trying to call Emily, but Emily never answered