Don't look back

Chapter 15

The jingle of keys at the front door sets my heart rate off. I can feel the panic rise in my throat. Not knowing who will be entering the door is setting the alarm bells off.

I crouch down in the corner trying to control my erratic breathing.

In through the nose, out through the mouth. Take deep breaths Lucille. It'll be over soon.

The door finally opens. I hold my breath.

Cameron- "Shit, Luce. It's ok babe"

Cameron rushes to my side helping me calm my nerves.

Lucille- (whispering) "I'm sorry"

Cameron- "Nothing to be sorry about. I should have messaged you that we were coming up. It's my fault"

Ainsley stands back to watch our interactions.

Ainsley- "Sorry Luce"

I am starting to take control of my breathing. I look up to Ainsley and give him a small smile

Lucille- "It's ok guys. I really need to learn to control my anxiety"

Cameron- "Luce, that will take time. We on the other hand can help you with that by remembering to announce we are coming in"

Cameron points to himself and Ainsley. They share a look which I have learnt is not a good news look. Pulling myself back up onto my feet I look to Cameron

Lucille- "Spit it out already"

Cameron turns his head away from me. I turn my glare to Ainsley

Lucille- "Tell me now"

Ainsley looks to Cameron and then back to me. His eyes are moving quickly between the two of us.

Ainsley- "You might wanna sit Luce"

I look at Ainsley, taking his advice I move towards the couch and sit down. Cameron comes and sits next to me and takes my hands. Ainsley sits on the coffee table in front of me and places one of his hands on my knee

Lucille- "What the hell is going on?"

Cameron clears his throat

Cameron- "Last night...."

He clears his throat again

Cameron- "Someone set fire to your old house. When the firies put the fire out and were able to search the house they found a body"

Already feeling my heart rate increase and my breathing become shallow, Cameron continues

Cameron- "They believe the body belongs to Adam. By the report from the scene, there was a bullet wound in his forehead"

I can feel the tears burning my eyes and the bile burning the back of my throat. I hated Adam for what he has done to me in the past 5 years but I am not a heartless b-tch.

Cameron removes one of his hands from mine and uses that free hand to pull me into his chest

Cameron- (whispering) "you can cry. It's ok. We understand"

My tears run down my face without me even trying to cry. Feeling deflated and all out of sorts, I quickly stand from the couch not before falling back down. My head is all fuzzy and the room keeps spinning. Cameron and Ainsley are still talking to me but their voices are sounding further and further away.

I lay down on the couch and close my eyes. Knowing that Adam isn't alive anymore is something I would wish on anybody.

I try to get comfortable. Tossing and turning. Adam's face is haunting me. There's a banging noise coming from the front door