L-O-V-E, Love - [Smosh] Courtmien / Courtamien

ch. 19 "Restless Night"

Courtney ran faster than the speed of light. She couldn't bare looking or thinking about Damien. Olivia soon rushed over to her and joined her in the stall.

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~ Olivia's POV ~

I quickly ran to her aid. There she was in the second stall, weeping and bawling, covered in her own tears. It was all too much for her to process or handle. I hugged her from the side in an attempt to comfort her.

"Hey, Courtney. Just look at me. All you need to do is apologize to him later. He's an understanding, loving, and caring guy, as well as your best friend. It's going to be okay. It was an accident, right?" She nodded in response.

She looked and was broken. I don't know if I can be the glue, but we'll just have to see and find out.

~ Damien's POV ~

I was..I don't know what I was. Shocked. Embarrassed. Defeated. She ran off again. Just like Saturday night. Again, it was because of me. Always because of me. All her problems? It was because of me.

I couldn't help but throw my outfit off and walk off set and start shedding tears. This was how our big celebration would start off? I completely blew it. All my fault, just because of what? Asking for a hug? Pathetic.

Shayne and Ian sat next to me on the couch while Mari went off set. Shayne placed his hand on my back. Some of the crew looked at me worryingly, while the rest were handeling the rest of the cast.

Ian mumbled something to Shayne and Ian told me to stand up. I stood up and followed him to his office. I sat down in the chair opposite of him.

"Look. Don't fret. We all make mistakes. Hell, I accidentally sprayed my ex with a water gun and claimed I cheated when I didn't. You're best friends, correct? You can make it work out. I'm not always the best at advice when it comes to relationships, but hey, I'm not the worst." He paused for a moment.

"Wait sorry, didn't mean relationships. I meant friendships." That's when I caught on.

"She likes me." I murmured.

The room grew silent once more.

"I can't really help you there. So maybe she does. It doesn't mean either one of you will act on it. So what if she did? Would you accept or would you not?"

I sat there quietly. I didn't know how to respond. I really only like her as a great friend. Sure, she's beautiful and all that, but it's just kind of weird. We've been best friends for a while and work together.

"It's your truth. You want only the best for her, but don't forget about yourself."

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Those words have been stuck in my mind all day. He was right after all. There was one thing, though.

I didn't want to have to hurt her. I never had any intention to, and I know it would if I spoke the truth. I'd be hurting someone regardless of what I chose. So what would I choose?

Nothing? That would play off as rude and I don't find it fair that she had to wait just to receive nothing.

Truth? It would break her heart, and potentially harm work and our friends.

Lie? It just isn't right to lie to her, and it wouldn't work out.

So. My answer? No idea.

I checked my clock. 1:47, it read. It's an Eat It or Yeet it tomorrow, and lots of filming. Go to sleep Damien. Go to sleep.

I couldn't. I laid there in bed, staring at the ceiling. The thoughts from these last few nights and after the Smoshcast flooded into my mind like a broken river dam. I've been thinking about this too much. Hours on end, worrying about this when it may not even happen.

I looked back at a picture of Courtney and I that was kept on my phone. My first day legitimately working at Smosh. Sigh. If only it could be like that again. Easy and simple. Now it's all complicated between the two of us.

I love her to death, but not in that way.

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