Seeing Her

Chapter 1

Billy's POV

"You blind dumb bitch!" Was the first thing I've heard all morning. I was walking down the stairs to make Mr. Smith (he doesn't want my 'filthy mouth' to ever say his name) and Stella breakfast. I wasn't looking at were I was walking and now look what I've done.

My face flew to the side to hard from her slap I'm surprised I didn't get whiplash. My bottom lip wobbled but I had to suck it up, if you cry you get it worse, I learned that the hard way.

"I'm s-so-rry Stella it was an a-a-accident" I stuttered, come on Billy they hate when you stutter. I saw as Stella rolled her eyes mumbling a "whatever stupid cow" as she shoved past me walking to her room.

I entered the kitchen to see my mom already started cooking, she looks a little pale and I can see restraining mark on her wrist. Dave hurt momma again. I hate seeing my momma in pain I know that Mr. Smith hurts me too but mom gets it worse, he likes to touch her private areas.

Momma saw me and her eyes lit up, but they instantly went to the newly red mark on my face and her eyes started to water. I already know what she's thinking momma blames herself for what's happening to us, I always try to say other wise but she doesn't like to listen to that.

"Momma let's not focus on that I promise I'm okay, come on I'll help you cook them breakfast and..." I wanted to ask momma to talk to me school today's the first day she always walks me, but I'm a senior now and Mr.Smith and Stella told me that I'm too old to have momma walk with me.

"Billy what were you gonna say?" Momma said a little worried. I talk to momma about everything she's my best friend and the only one in this world who cares for me, so it's no wonder she's worried I was hesitant on saying something.

"It's just I wanted you to walk with me to school but I'm too old now so it's okay you don't have to I'll... be f-fine" my voice cracked at the end as my lip wobbled. I guess her being their with me is bigger than I thought. Her eyes softened but then got hard.

"You are NOT to old to have me walk with you sweets if you want me their I'm their, don't give it a second thought. You know what I got breakfast go get ready".

I started to shake my head and say something but momma gave me a "you really wanna try me" look so I stopped sighed and walked to my room to get ready.

I guess momma was right I do love her being their, I don't have any friends at school Stella made sure that everyone stayed away.

She had a lot of power considering that Mr.Smith is principle, Stella rules the school. Oh! I do have friends! Two of my teachers, my English teacher Mrs. Longford and my Art teacher Mr. Rock.

I looked at my small closet (if you can call it that it's a bar attached to the wall and my dresser) sighed softly my eyes roaming over my clothes. It's on the little chilly side today so I grabbed my tan knitted sweater and my light blue jean jacket. I opened the second to the top drawer that has my pants and grabbed a mid thigh tan skirt.

I walked to the bathroom set my stuff down and got undressed. I looked at myself in the mirror, my eyes that were once bright and full of life, my smile that only shows up around one person but hasn't been a true happy smile. My average sized petite body with scars and bruises littering everywhere.

Most of my scars have left stories behind to be told but never were. Not even to my mom. I if told momma the stories behind them it would hurt her more then Mr. Smith hurts her. Momma knows Mr. Smith and Stella hurt me she tried to protect me the best she can, but theirs nothing she can do besides just get hit as well.

I forced my eyes away from the mirror and turned on the shower. I stepped in letting the hot water rolled down my body the hot water slightly relaxing my muscles.  I washed my hair and body and shaved everywhere.

After I was done I stepped out and let my hair air dry and left it down, momma always told me she loves my hair and so did dad he loved my hair down he said it reminds him of momma.

I walked to the small bag I keep my small amount of makeup. I put on some mascara, some lip gloss and filled in my eyebrows a little bit. After putting on my makeup I put on a pair of white converse.

I walked downstairs slowly and peaked my head around the corner and saw Mr. Smith and Stella eating.

I turned and walked quietly to the front door, I saw momma was already their my backpack in her hand. I gave her a small smile and left making as little noise as we could.

The moment we stepped out side we started walking towards school, momma grabbed my hand giving me a reassuring squeeze making me look at her. We gave each other smiles and talked about my nerves for this school year.

"Sweets I have a feeling this is gonna be a good year, I want you to promise to give things a chance okay?" Momma said as we were nearing the school. I looked at her unsure but saw the look in her eye, the look of hope a look that I haven't seen in a long time.

"Okay momma. I promise"
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Hey guys! The picture up top is Ruby the bunny that was in her dads car. I hope you enjoyed the first chapter! Let me know your thoughts if you have any - please don't be too harsh on me🥺.
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