Whumptober 2020 | Sanders Sides

No. 11 PSYCH 101

Full Prompt:
No. 11 PSYCH 101
Defiance | Struggling | Crying

Prompt(s) chosen: Crying

TW: Crying, overworking ones self, not self-caring.

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Logan set his pen down on his desk next to his open notebook. He had been working for about five hours straight, while only consuming coffee. Sure, that probably wasn't the best for him, but he needed to get this done. This was all for Thomas. He was so close to being done, maybe just... another two or three hours. 

He set his elbows on his desk, propping his hands up and running his fingers through his hair. He generally did this when he was stressed, just because it... he wasn't even sure. It was probably just a stressed habit he had picked up sometime. At this point his only goal was to finish this and go to sleep. Though he wasn't even sure he would be able to do that at this point. 

Logan felt a tear run down his cheek as the stress just completely overwhelmed him. This little bit of crying quickly turned to him fully sobbing. He wasn't sure that he would be able to do this, and if he didn't he would be a disappointment to Thomas and the rest of the sides. He didn't want to be a disappointment. All he wanted to do was be good enough so he wouldn't be ignored. 

At this point he didn't know what to do so he figured he would just cry until he had no more tears left to cry. Well, that was his plan until he heard the door crack open. Then he heard a person gasp and two pairs of steps could be heard running over. Logan had a guess at who these two people were, and his suspicions were quickly confirmed. 

"Lolo, are you okay?" He heard Remus asking. His voice was gentle and he obviously cared about him. "Touch?" He asked, gently. That was a thing they had established a while ago. Obviously, you should always ask someone if you can touch them when they are crying/having a panic attack, but Logan preferred to be asked and told before people touched him all the time. 

Logan nodded, and Remus scooped him up out of his chair and walked him over to Logan's bed. The other person there, Janus, pulled back the covers. Remus sat Logan on the side of the bed. Quickly they removed his shoes and glasses before they told him to lie down. It wasn't hard to tell that Logan hadn't slept very well the last couple of nights. His hair was slightly messier than normal and the bags under his eyes from stress and lack of sleep were worse than normal. 

By now Logan had stopped crying. It was nice to be taken care of by his boyfriends, even when he knew he had work he should be doing right now. "Honey," Janus started, "you know you should be overworking yourself. It is good for you." Janus got in bed next to Logan and cuddled with him. He stole Logan's heat too. Logan was a living heater and no one knew why. 

"I just had some work to do. I was almost done." Logan said.

"Lies." Janus hissed. 

Logan sighed, snuggling with Janus. "Okay, maybe I had about two or three hours left, but I had already gotten a lot done! It wouldn't have been that bad!" Logan's thoughts were racing. He kept his calm on the outside, but he needed to get this done. It wasn't that bad. It had been worse in the past. It was whatever. 

"Lolo, please. You need to take a break. Working for about... however long you were working without any breaks isn't good for you. Being this stressed isn't good for you." Remus said, trying desperately to convince Logan that he needed to self-care. He too slid into the bed and big spooned Logan. 

Logan, now that he was kind of trapped lying down was realizing how tired he was. His eyes fluttered closed so he was just lying there inbetween his boyfriends. "Yeah, yeah, whatever." His tiredness was probably the thing talking at this point. 

"It is whatever, Logan. You don't need to take care of yourself." Janus said, slightly annoyed that he kept speaking in lies, but he couldn't do anything about it. There was no use complaining right now. He needed to help one of his boyfriends and that is exactly what he intended to do. "Here, at least do not sleep right now while we are here." 

Janus and Remus looked at their sleepy boyfriend who, they could tell by his steady breathing, was almost completely asleep. "Mhm." Logan mumbled, snuggling into Remus and Janus the best he possibly could. With Remus big spooning him and Janus snuggling into him, well, more like being the littlest spoon, he was the shortest side after all, Logan quickly fell asleep. 

"He really needs to take better care of himself," Remus said to Janus. 

"I disagree." Janus agreed. "All we can do is not help him." Remus nodded then fell asleep himself. Janus shortly following the other two. 

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Word Count: 836

Written on 10/11/2020 and 10/12/2020.

Sorry it's a shorter chapter than normal.