Bad Girl, Good Boy

Princessa again

The love of my life?
Was i really tho, did he mean that, NO WHAT THE HELL AM I THINKING
"Mattia please leave now"i say trying to close the door
"No y/n im done with this, you kept him away from me for what 5 or 4 years you cant keep him away from me" he says aggressively i take a step back, being afraid that he would hit me
But he looks at me in a worried way
"Why did you think i was gonna hit you" he asks
"You know exactly why now leave please"
"But y/n"
"no mattia no bu-"
"Mamwi whats wrong" i hear mateo say
I turn around and see him half awake and half asleep
"Nothing mateo go back to your room now" i say a bit agitated 
"Mommy whos that" he says pointing towards mattia
"No one mateo now go back to your room hermoso, ill be there in a second"
"Okay mami" he says and walks back
"You saw him so leave now" i say
"Okay,  but just know that im not done, and i won't stop until i have you and my boy back"
And he left
I closed the door and fell onto my knees and started crying
Why am i crying i ask, did i think i would ever confront him
Why, how did he fine out
What am i gonna do i get up and wipe my tears and walk to mateos room
He had already gone back to sleep
I tuck him in and kiss his forhead, i lay beside him because i knew when i was sad i would always sleep with him because he made me
"My baby your gonna meet your dad soon" i whisper to him not waking him up "but i dont know when"

I close my eyes with tears still falling down both of my cheeks. I feel mateo turn around and faceing me, he was still asleep so i cuddled up with him

Two Days Later

What the hell am i doing, am i actually doing this

"mami so donde vamos" mateo asks

"its- its a surpirse" i say hella nervous, i was shaking, and my hands where sweating. WHAT THE HELL AM  I DOING  i kept asking myself

1 day before

I wake up beside my baby boy, i fell my eyes puffed and i get up without waking teo up, i get up an get ready, i put my hair up in a messy bun and put an oversized shirt and one of the boys sweatpants that was left from the boys

i start making breakfast, pancakes and eggs just how teo likes, i even made hot chocolate, but it wasnt to comfort Mateo it was to help me, i was completely lost, the mixed emotions that I had

It all happened 4 years ago, what am i gonna do, what am i supposed to say

Mateo wakes up and he runs to me and hugs my legs, i pick him up and kiss him in the forhead

"buenos dias mami" he says as he puts his small hand through my hair I smile

"buenos dias mi amor" i say, "lets eat baby" i say as i sit him down in his chair

i serve the food to him and we eat, my mom decided that she would take care of mateo for the day because she hadnt seen him in a while, and I agreed.

i didnt have anywork or anything, as a young mother i really couldnt go out or have much fun but here i was

i decided maybe i needed to go out and clear my head, i needed to think

what i was doing was bad, keeping mateo away from Ma- his father was bad, he had erick growing up but that was different.

I decide to go shopping, for what you ask, I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA

i decide maybe ill just go to the mall, i go and drive and honestly i didnt even wanna go, in general i didnt want to get out of the car
I look around and take a deep breath and as soon as i enter the building i hear
"Y/n wait" i close my eyes wishing it wasn't who i think it was
I keep walking and ignoring it
"Princessa" he says
I stand in shock, frozen not knowing what to do
I turn around and see him
Mattia had changed his hair was longer, i didn't notice how much he changed, he looked more mature older but in a good way WHAT THE HELL AM I SAYING
"What" i say
"Y/n please we have to talk 3 years without talking, cmon WE SHARE A FUCKING CHILD" he says pretty loud that a few people around us look
"Fine, but never call me that ever again" i say
"Y/n dont you get it i love you, i fucking love you and i never stopped, you where and are the one for me. I got into a relationship yes i loved her but you, you where always in the back of my mind. Y/n I LOVE YO-"
"ma-mattia?" A voice says from behind
I look "Anarely??" I ask confused
"So you are the one, the one who he loves. I-i though we where friend how could you" she says
"No anarely its not what it looks like"
"No i get it, you just felt sorry" she says
I look at mattia
"Anarely, y/n's got nothing to do with this. Its all me, its always me, its always my fault" mattia says putting his head down
For some reason i felt bad for him, i natural instinct i hugged him I HUGGED HIM TF i said "mattia thats not true" WHEN I REALIZED WTF I WAS DOING i pulled away and looked at mattia he was looking at me and Anarely is no where to be
"Y-"
"We are here to talk, nothing else"
We went to the food court without saying anything was sat in a table of two and looked at eachother, but i broke the stare. What the hell am i doing here?
"Y/-" mattia says being cut off from my name being yelled from across the food court
I look and see this guys who is in my class in college. We where partners in a project last semester, his name is AJ (random name) Rodriguez
"Hey y/n i knew i had recognized you" he said smiling toward me i guess not noticing mattia
"Hey AJ" i get up from the chair giving him a slight hug
"What are yo-" he says turning to mattia
Mattia stands up and a fear in me grows. What is he gonna do?
"Hello, im sorry but we were in the middle of conversing" he says
"Oh sorry well ill leave, bye y/n call me later" AJ says and leaves
"Who the hell is that" mattia says a bit jealous
"They hell you care"
"Well i do infact, because i care for the people that i love, and i am jealous and so what," he says getting closer to my face with a smirk

Hey sorry for not updating but i dont stan mattia anymore, please respect my opinion, but i will be trying to finish this story. But im sorry i have decided that i just cant support him.