I wear myself out with worry,
spinning out like a top.
I am in such a hurry
to be everything I'm not.
My visions getting blurry.
My heart's in purgatory--
torn, bouncing all around,
then sideways, upside down.
I wear myself out with worry,
trying to silence all the lies,
but all it does is feed them.
Watering with each tear I cry,
and I tell myself I need them--
the hesitation, pinprick of needles,
a hard shell none see past, like a beetle--
I don't know how to function
without panic at every junction.
I wear myself out only to wind myself up.
Take away this addictive cup.
I want off this merry-go-round,
but I'm drawn dumbly like a moth.
Turn the carnival music off.
Lower the triangle flags, stop the clown gags.
Collapse the tent. Yes, now! Take it down.
I'll lay flat on solid ground
for a few minutes, breathing out
all the tension and muted shouts.
I'm done being a wind-up toy in a show of my own making.
Tell the three-ring circus my hearts no longer for the taking.
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Every Last Drop
Poetryfor hard times. for the lonely late nights. and the tears we cry. every last drop. * all rights reserved