Solby// Revenge Beauty

chapter 9

Sam's POV

I couldn't believe what just happened, I've been staring at Jake's close door for a good hour completely dumbfounded, I thought Jake's behavior lately was a little strange, but I thought it was just Jake being playful and flirty and that the only difference was that now he's being paying a lot more attention to me, and we've been spending more time together without anyone else.

But apparently I was wrong  ' maybe that's how Colby felt, with me'. Now everything makes so much sense to me not only Jake's behavior, but Tara's as well, they have an agreement, a deal, to get me, both of them, I should be terrified or down right weird out, but for some reason the idea, turned me on slightly.

But at the same time, can I do it? Should I? I'm not stupid, now I fully understand what they want and what they expect of me.

But can I share the way they do with each other? Can I stand being "the other one"? Not being the center of attention, open relationships are wild, I understand them and respect them, I just never consider them as something I could personally do. And still after all 'what about my feelings for Colby' I can't just pretend they aren't there, or that they suddenly disappeared, cus that would be lying to myself, to Colby, and to Jake and Tara.

~ this is so confusing~ I whisper to myself ruffling my own hair.

What can I do, I mean Colby is confused so am I, a stable relationship between us is out of the table for the time being. Should I stay put and wait for whatever me and Colby have, to slowly evolve, or should I take full advantage of the opportunity Jake is offering to me, and explore my sexuality and a whole new world of "relationships".

~ too complicated, why do I get myself into this? ~ I whisper to myself again.

A deep sensual chuckle snaps me out of my thoughts
~ why are you talking to yourself, alone in complete darkness at 3 am, kinda creepy bud. ~ Colby says coming down the stairs still half asleep.

~ is 3 am? I didn't noticed, I was just lost in thought~ I responded only now noticing how late it was and how I've just being walking around the house in complete darkness just humming and talking to myself from time to time, pretty creepy I must say.

~ what are you doing up then? A penny for your thoughts? ~ Colby says now standing in front of me .

~ I'm just confused. Why are you up at this time? ~ I asked him.

~ forgot to take my water bottle upstairs, and I got thirsty~ he replies with his deep sleepy voice giving me shivers, he walks to the fridge to get his water bottle and starts drinking. ~ what are you confused about? ~ he asks me returning his attention to me.

~ Jake and Tara.... and you~ I reply watching him cautiously.

~ oh.. So he told you his intentions with you? ~ Colby says with an arched eye brow.

~ not much tell me, but showed me~ I say., to what Colby start choking on his water. Once he managed to breathe again he asked.

~ what you mean he showed you?!~ he says raising his voice, with a face of disbelief.

~ shhhhhh, you're gonna wake everyone up~ I said putting my hands on his bare chest trying to calm him down, not noticing at first I was the one who close the distance between us, I just wanted to quiet him down.
I blush and I tried to explain to him what I meant.

~ I thought Jake's and Tara's behavior was a little odd today, I ignored it at first, but then Jake kissed me and I kinda understand were they were coming from and what they wanted~ I explain while I slowly notice Colby loosing color on his face. ~ woah, you okay Colby? ~