Daughter of Heaven and Earth

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   It's been weeks since the witch incident happened. The wolves have left me alone for the most part and I try my best to avoid them. I don't want to be around them, their scent makes me want to gag now and I blame the witch. Since my little tumble with the witch I've felt odd and weak. As a result I've stayed at the waterfall and meditated for as long as possible. My mind is clearer when I'm at the waterfall and I feel overall better. I noticed two days after I killed the witch that the birthmark on my hip, my mothers, had faded slightly and it's been slowly darkening. It makes me think that maybe if I had let the witch take all of my power then I would be a human. A fragile human who could die, who could age. Would my life be different if I were a human. Would I be happy as a human? I shake those thoughts out of my head and continue meditating. 

  It was early morning and the birds were chirping their little song. I inhale and exhale letting my worries melt away but it can't be helped. My thoughts drift to the rogues. The last attack was at least two months ago but since then there hasn't been anything happening. The last time I heard the patrol report there was nothing out of the ordinary. It makes me think that they're planning a strategy that we aren't ready for. I don't know how the wolves on our side are doing in regards to training because I've been out here meditating and trying to build my power up. If they decided to attack now I can't say that I would be of any help. I'm sure the wolves on our side would be more than necessary since all the wolves are gathered at Caleb's pack but then again from what Caleb has told me they took some of the weaker willed wolves with them. They might have more wolves than we do but we have the stronger ones. I'm not sure how the whole beast situation has been but I suggested to Caleb that he should meditate for the beast to be clicked in and left for the waterfall. I can't blame him if he hasn't tried it considering that I probably looked crazy and unhinged. I can't be blamed I had just taken out a witch who had stolen my powers and would've probably decided to take out the pack or steal from it. Either way I probably went a little overboard.

    I stop meditating and exhale looking up at the sky. The clouds are slowly shuffling across the endless blue and the breeze makes me shiver slightly. My mind wonders to my mom. I wonder if she can see this, if she sees me and misses me. If she sees everything that going on with her precious wolves and if she plans to help them. She probably made their destinies to turn out this way. She made each and every turn for this to happen. I frown at that. She would never do this to her creations. She loved them so much and now she's forsaking them? It doesn't make sense to me. I know now what it's like to love something and this isn't love. I know she adored and loved her creations but now they're having a war amongst each other. I clench my teeth as anger builds inside of me. I want to scream at her for just watching them die at each others hands.

  "Why won't you help them? You made them! You're suppose to help them!" Yelling at the heavens doesn't make me feel any better if anything it made me feel so much smaller. Knowing that she can hear me, that she can see me but she won't help them. "I just don't want them to get hurt anymore. Please mom protect them. If you won't listen to me as my mother listen to my as one of your other creations. Please." My chest felt heavy and there are tears in my eyes. I didn't want them to hurt anymore but there was nothing more I could do. She stopped talking to me decades ago. 

  I stay hunched over staring at the water for a few more minutes before I decided to go back to my room. I swim out of the water and start making my way back to the pack. The trees swayed above me as I was deep in thought. The smell of musty dirt reaches my senses  and I scrunch my nose. All the wolves here smell like like musty dirt now and I don't really find it pleasant. I take the route I usually take to avoid any wolves which is in the outskirts of the territory closest to the castle. I shuffle through the overgrown grass and scale up the side of the castle into my window dropping down on the floor of my room with a tired sigh. I lay there thinking for a few minutes before I heard the floor creak outside the room. I stay on the ground and ignore it, it's probably just Kennedy coming to yell at me or Will coming to bug me about something. The door opens and I close my eyes.