The widower

Chapter 27

Perrie POV:
I woke up to jade sleeping on my stomach she's done that since. Well you know. We both missed the baby a lot. It's been horrible trying to explain it to the kids and are family. The worst bits been the bumps been gradually going down every day which reminds me that's it's empty in there now. I feel horrible. I've tried to keep positive snd thinking I have 3 kids and I've been lucky but it still sometimes doesn't mend the heartache I've been feeling. I stroked back jades hair and just looked at her. I wondered what the baby would've looked like. She stirred a bit and opened her eyes and looked around a little and closed them again. "We've got the appointment in an hour you gonna wake up" she nodded and heals into me tighter "I love you" she said snd I could see she was sad just by looking at her. She had every right to be. "I love you too" I said and kissed her head "you hungry yet" she shook her head "not really" I nodded "you have have to eat soon you know babe" she nodded "I will just not yet" I kissed her head and Leo came over and sat next to jade. "Hello mama you ok" he said and stroked jades head. She smiled for the first time in a while and nodded. "Yeah doing fine buddy what about you" she said and Leo sat down "I did a drawing on the iPad do you want to see it" jade nodded and Leo sat against my side "that's me and that ones you and were playing football and I won" i smiled and jade kissed Leo's head. Jade lifted up my top a little and looked at the little bump. "Can we try again" I nodded "corse we can give it a few weeks" she nodded and kissed my stomach. "I feel better anyway" I nodded "Good should we go shopping I think you deserve a treat" she smiled and nodded "corse and can the kids come I want to treat them and buy them something" she sat up and sighed. I rubbed her back and got up getting dressed.
Later that day we were back on the sofa in the same position as earlier but it was different jade was on top of me. "I love you so much come give me a kiss" she said and pouted. I kissed her slowly and she rubbed my thighs. "Let's have a drink" I nodded. "I think we should have something stronger than wine tonight we deserve it" she said getting out a bottle of vodka from under the sink.

Jades POV:
2 hours later and 8 shots each later I felt like I'd reached the maximum. She grabbed me "I'm sorry I lost him babe" she said and I hugged her tight. "Don't be silly boo you didn't do anything wrong" I said and hooked my arm around her waist. "Mummy, mama we made you a surprise" lucy said and I put my shot down and turned into sober Perrie. "What do you mean surprise baby" she grabbed mine and jades hand and pulled us into the garden. "Come on" Leo said pulling jade over by her t-shirt. "Close your eyes" lydia said and I obeyed my 4 year old. "Ok open" we did snd my heart swelled up. "Auntie Jesy and auntie Leigh helped us do it they said we should all stick together" Leo said and smiled a little. They'd gotten the mattress from the spare room and put in in the little building we have outside and out pillows and blankets and fairy lights on it. "Do you like it" lucy said and me and jade hugged them. "Your all so amazing" jade said and teared up. The twins went and jumped onto the mattress stuffing there face. "I know your sad because we lost the baby but he's with dad now and dads kind so he can look after him or her but it'll be ok" Leo said and kissed jades cheek. "I love you mama" he said and she smiled. "I love you too Leo" he smiled snd I hugged jade. "There so amazing" she said and I smiled. "I know let's just spend time together like a proper family and we have the wedding to look forward too. "I do love you miss Thirlwall" I said and she smiled snd laughed a little and kissed me. "Oi lovebirds the films on" lydia shouted snd I giggled "just like her mum" jade said and smiled. "And there's rules" lucy said stopping us at the door "no kissing and Umm that's it" she said and smiled and sat next to lydia again. "I love you" jade whispered and kissed me.