Teardrops

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James....

"James, aren't you tired of watching her all day? You look like a creepy stalker! Tch."

I heaved a deep sigh as I face Jake, my best buddy, and smiled lamely to him.

"I can do this forever, Jake. You know how much I love her and it would stay like that until the very end."

"But dude, look at yourself! Napapabayaan mo na yang sarili mo dahil sa pagsunod sunod sa babaeng yan. Common dude, move on kasi! And dami pang ibang babae dyan na mas worthy pa sa pagmamahal mo."

"I don't expect you to understand, Bud. I swear to myself that I will love the first woman that I will fell in love, forever. And it won't change even though she's with someone else."

"Tsk, bahala ka na dyan buddy. Wala naman akong magagawa sa katigasan ng ulo mo ehh. Support nalang ako, hahaha!!"

Napailing na lamang ako sa kaibigan ko. I am happy that I have someone who can understand me. I took a final glance at Stephanie, my ex girlfriend, before I walked away with my buddy. Yeah, you read it right. I'm still in love with her so I'm always tailing her around. I have money and power so I don't have to work all day to make my living,and also to follow her wherever.

I'm willing to do everything for her even though she can't see my worth. I'm willing to give my love even though she don't give a damn. And I'm willing to be like this forever.

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"James? Anong ginagawa mo rito? Are you following me?!"

I was a little bit nervous when Stephanie saw me in the lobby of the hospital. Yeah I followed her all the way in here, not because I just want to, but because I'm worried about her.

"S-stephanie?! What a C-coincidence! What are you d-doing here?"

I wanted to punch myself for stammering. She still have the affect in me. And yeah, fuck the coincidence tch.

"I-I'm with Liam, he's having a check up right now. You, what are you doing in here?"

"U-uhm, I'm with Jake... And uhm---"

"Oh wait, there's Liam! Sorry James, I need to go. Bye!"

She then left me hurrying to come to Liam. I smiled bitterly and stand up. I can see her from afar when she's alone, but it's different when she's with him. I am not that numb to feel the pang of pain in my chest whenever I see them together. And besides, I'm always used to being left.

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"S-stephanie? Why are you crying?"

She wiped her tears and looked at me.

"I-it's nothing, James. Please just leave me alone."

"N-no, I won't leave. You can tell me what's bothering you. I'm always here for you, Stephanie. You know that."

"J-just stay out of it, James!"

"I insist Steph, I'm here to listen. I'm willing to help you, just say what is it."- I said and gave her a reassuring smile. Her tears then fell again as she covered her face with her palms. I can't see her being like this, it's breaking me to pieces.

"L-liam--- L-liam has a severe heart failure. He can't l-live without a new heart a-and his parents can't afford the operation! Oh gosh, I tried to give him a help but my money still isn't enough. I don't know what to do, J-james! I don't want to lose him!!"

I just stayed by her side until she's ok. Then that's her problem, she can't afford to lose him but it's easy for her to dump me when we're still together. I chuckled silently while still caressing her hair. I would love to stay like this forever.

" Would you be happy if he will be saved?"

" Damn much, James! I would be the happiest!"

"Are you willing to have a lose just to save him?"

"They can take away any from me just to save Liam."

"Even the once important to you?"

"Yes."

And right there, I knew what will be done to me. I guess this will be the start of my end. I will end all of my efforts and obsession towards her. I am now willing to set her free, and myself from her.

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"Ms. Stephanie Langstone??"

"Y-yes, doc?"

"Please tell to his parents that the operation will be done by tomorrow. Everything is settled and all you have to do is to wait."

"W-wait... I don't understand, you mean the cost of his operation is payed?"

"Yes, Ms. Langstone. Someone named James Evans came to pay all the bills this morning."

"Oh gosh! J-James?! "

"Yes, Excuse me."

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"Konnichiwa! Watashi no namae wa, Elizabeth desu! Ohayou Gozaimasu!"

I smiled at the tourist guide in front of me. I'm here in Japan to unwind. I want to end everything and forget. I want to start again and fix myself for me to continue going forward.

"Good morning. So, where are we going for today?"

I want to love myself more than I love someone else. Maybe there's a void that was left in my heart but I know I can fill and fix it with my own efforts for myself. I just wanted not to be like the man I am right now.

I don't want to be a man who can't be move....

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