Memoria. | Kozume Kenma

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"He does.. He still loves you very much, (Y/n).. He still loves you.."

"Then why..? Why'd he have to leave me all alone?" My words are muffled because I'm crying on his shoulder. How did I get to have him comfort me again? "Doesn't he know how hard it is..? But it's my fault... If I was careful.. he wouldn't.."

"The accident wasn't your fault. Don't blame yourself.." He faced me, wiping my cheeks with his thumbs. I lean my head on his chest, letting my tears fall to the floor. "He always thinks of you.. he loves you more than anything."

"Then why did he have to part from me... I wouldn't have to be alone.." He sighed and pulled me closer, my face resting in the crook of his neck. "I-I can't graduate.... I-I can't pay for my tuition fees... I haven't even eaten just to save up.."

I felt his hand stop on my head, making me look at him. I want him to keep brushing my hair, it's helping.. I whined and directed his hand to continue brushing my hair. Why isn't he brushing it on his own anymore? I keep whining and beg him to brush it, my heart's pounding again.. I need him to continue doing it.

"I'm here, it's okay.. calm down." My eyelids got heavier every minute, he's brushing my hair and wiping my face.

He's saying something but I can't understand him anymore, I'm falling asleep on his shoulder. How much will he reduce my pay for troubling and burdening him? He's the kindest boss... if my boss was someone else then I might've been called crazy and I would've been kicked out or something.

I don't know but I like his scent. Has anyone ever told him how addictive he smells like? His scent, the way how he brushed my hair and pat my back, the simple words that came out of his mouth, the way how he told me not to blame myself.. everything he did helped me out.

Whatever he did was what I needed all these years... even with Naoki doing those for me, his warmth was never enough, reason why I still broke down and cry every time I get home. Definitely, Kozume-san was a big help.. how did he help me? Why did he do better than a friend who was there for me..?

I woke up in my bed, what happened after I fell asleep? Did he carry me home? But the keys and my things were still back there.. on my desk.. Maybe he found my keys and opened the door.. but how did he know which was my bedroom? Maybe he used to come over.. we were seat mates.. I burdened him..

I went downstairs to take a shower, finding things on my dining table. "What's these? Did Naoki come over..?"

"Eat and don't starve yourself. If you ever need these pills then, I'll give you a bottle. Message me once you wake up. XXXXXXXXXX"  - Kozume

Are these groceries..? I look at the plastic bags that were on the table, finding so many food in them. Why'd he have to trouble himself? I already troubled him with bringing me home so, buying groceries for me is already more than what he should be doing. Plus why is he being so nice?

I open my fridge to put everything away, finding more food inside. There's chicken, pork, sushi, beef, fish.. fruits, nuts.. Pistachios! How did he know that I love these? Maybe coincidence? Or he just saw me eat them everyday back in high school? Whatever but, I'm really happy that he gave me pistachios!

ME: Thank you! Sorry for troubling you..

Kozume-san: You barely eat, I can see why you get sick easily.

Kozume-san: That's not much, so it's fine. Don't repay me.

ME: I want to though.. please?