Biology • Yeonbin

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Soobins smile disappears and he looks to the floor.

He's been trying to go to chemo for so long but the thought of going bald kinda scared him.

And now that he has to tutor Yeonjun he really doesn't want to disappoint him because he has cancer. Infact that will just worry the older more and he won't be able to focus on his studies.

"I'll be good without it" soobin says as he rubs the side on his neck. He watches his mom turn back to look at his eyes with her worried ones. She sighs and walks out without another word.

As soon as he heard the click of the closed door he turns around and grabs his hair in frustration as he heads to the shower.

He turns off the water as he looks down to his feet and watches the water drip down to the floor. He feels it running down his ear and cheeks.

'maybe I won't feel this again' he thinks.

And he's been thinking of all the things he could do but won't if he went to chemotherapy and didn't make it.

This was no new thought for soobin he's been this way since freshman year. 2 years ago.

He grabs a towel and wrapped it around his waist, and grabs another towel and plops it on his head and messely drys his hair.

He faces the mirror and takes off the towel. He stares at his reflection for a bit until he pulls hair back to see how he'd look if he really did loose his hair. He leans his head back so he won't see his hairline.

"Fucking egg" he told himself.

He then put the border of the towel with his hairline, and it was better?
He didn't know what to feel about him being bald. He had pretty healthy thick hair so it'd be a shame if it went.

He tied the towel to the back of his head so he would look at himself without holding it. He turns his head so see himself in different angles.

He sighs and takes off the towel.
"Whatever"

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Soobin sat in his desk of his biology class procrastinating if he should mention him leaving- or not feeling well to Yeonjun. Part of him wants to believe that Yeonjun would care for his well being and would accept his diagnosis even if he didn't tell him at this very moment.

'ill tell him at tutoring' he thought which put him more at ease. 

♡

Wow how time flew by. It's already time for tutoring, and soobin wasn't ready to say anything about him diagnosis. They've known each other for half a year and have gotten really close, to the point where he would call him a close friend. And not just him Beomgyu, Taehyun and hueningkai too. He felt as if al least they should know.

He did a couple breathing exercises before Yeonjun had came. Just to calm him down.

"The fuck are you doing" Yeonjun whispers into soobins ear. Soobin opened his eyes shocked that Yeonjun was already here.

"What made you come so early?" Soobin questions him.

"What? I've been sitting here watching you breath for the past 5 minutes" he confessed.

And all of the anxiety from before came back. And it brought some extra friends. Oh how nice.

As his face turns a light shade of red he looks the other way and clears his throat.

"Okay! So since we started a new topic so will we" he opens the text book to the topic of dividing cells.

'what a coincidence' he rolled his eyes as his hands became sweaty and begin to shake.