Bachelor Series Book 2: Clandestine Love

Chapter 3

Tinignan ako nito sa mata. His eyes were like pleading. "Don't you want me too, baby?"

I can't utter any word. My heart is insanely pounding because of the words coming out from his mouth. Para bang napakalalim ng pinanggagalingan ng mga salita niya at nilulunod ako ng mga iyon. Pati ang mga mata niya ay animo dinadala ako sa paraiso dahil sa pagpaparamdam sa'kin na parang ako lang ang tanging nakikita niya sa mga mata. Na parang ako ang lang ang babaeng pinakamahalaga sa kaniya.

"So now you're leaving?" tumango nalang ako at muli na naman siyang bumuga ng marahas na hangin.

"Alright. Let's go, baby. I'll send you home."

LULAN kami ng kaniyang Range Rover habang parehong may malalim na iniisip. He keeps on clenching his jaw and rubbing his lips from time to time. Alam kong marami siyang gustong sabihin but I can't take anything right now.

H'wag na muna.

Alam ko kung anong pinasok ko. I enjoyed everything we've shared earlier kahit alam kong mali 'yon. That's why I can't have sex again with him now. I can't go overboard.

Being intimate with a guy who is already in a relationship makes me worse. And I can't be the worst to fuck him behind their sweet pictures and iloveyou's on the internet. Kaka-stalk ko lang sa kanila ni Melanie sa instagram at halos puno iyon ng larawan nila. I got drank by the images I saw. And out of nowhere I want to seduce him. I am such a bitch.

I love making thrills and being in a risky situation. That must be why, being with him creates a burning fire inside me that wakes my inner demons. Kaya rin siguro kahit alam kong mali ay pilit paring nagugustuhan ng katawan ko dahil iyon ang nakakapagpagising ng kaluluwa ko. It's been my game, and I'm loving every bit of it. The thrills. The adrenaline.

Pero mukhang palyado ngayon. I can't continue now that I feel like losing in my own shit game. Na wala naman talaga katuturan. I feel like falling. And that's not in the rule. Hindi ako kailanman natalo sa ginusto kong laro. But this is damn different! Hindi siya laro. Dahil una, ay si Vincent ito. At pangalawa, isinusugal ko na ang buong puso at pagkatao ko.

Masyado ng mapanganib para sunggaban pa lalo. Hindi pwedeng mas malulong ako. Kaya hangga't kaya ay pinipigilan ko ang sarili. Dahil sa oras na bumigay ulit ako, alam kong hindi kona mapipigilan pa ang damdaming namumuo sa loob ko. No matter how I crave on the thing between his pants.

Really A? Kailan kapa naging ganiyan mag-isip? Para ka ng sex maniac.

I cringe. Siguradong tatawanan ako ng bestfriend kong si Charm 'pag nalaman niya 'tong mga pumapasok sa isip ko.

"We're here." , pinatay niya ang ignition at inalis ang seatbelt niya. Marahan siyang tumitig sa'kin at unti-unting inilapit ang sarili.

Again. I can't stop myself from anticipating his moves.

I held on his face the moment our lips touched. It is a steamingly hot french kiss.

"Mmm.." inalis niya ng mabilisan ang seatbelt ko at agaran akong pinaupo sa kaniyang harapan.

"Ohhh." I playfully moaned, pulled his polo shirt up and rolled it down again. I chuckled and kissed him fully on the lips.

I know how we both want this. Even if it's not the right thing to do. I love the blood rushing through my veins whenever we intimately touch each other like this. Damn me and my bitchiness. And the damn fucking alcohol.

"So fucking naughty." gigil niyang pinisil ang pang-upo ko at mas pinalalim pa ang halik.

I thought you're gonna stop, A? Anong nangyari ngayon?