Ocean || luke hemmings

XVI

"It was hilarious." Indigo was laughing once again.

Indigo couldn't count how many times she laughed after the situation in coffee shop two days ago. 

"I wish you could've seen him."

'He was so cute.' Indigo thought. His red cheeks. However, last two days she spent deciding what to do with her future. With her dad suggestion she decided to take a year off and try to find something she really liked. Something she could see herself doing for the rest of her life. Her dad didn't want her to rush and make a wrong choice.

"I'll stay home this year." She informed her mother.

"Dad said it's the best for now."

"So Indigo..."

Indigo almost screamed. Luke's voice scared her to death. Only thing she could do is to pray he didn't heard her talking.

"It's not just about ocean, is it?"

With his words all of her hopes were gone. She started shaking. She didn't want him to know. She didn't feel comfortable with him knowing. At last not for now.

"It's ok, you don't have to tell me." Luke tried to calm her. 

For a few minutes they sat in silence. Really uncomfortable silence.

"My mum drowned." Indigo said out of nowhere. 

Luke was without a single word. The only thing he was able to do is to put his arm around her back. With it, he pulled her a bit closer to himself. Now, her head was on his shoulder.

"They never found her body."

Luke was still silent. He didn't know what to say. He never went through something like that. God  he prayed not to go through something like that.

"I feel like I'm closer to her, when I'm here."

He pulled her even closer. At first he was socked. But then, he was amazed. How could this tiny little 'sunflower' be so strong. If he was in her feet, he'd probably never look at he ocean again.

"It made me love ocean even more."

"Wow." escaped Luke's mouth.

'She's so strong.' is the only thing he could think of.

"That's one of the things she taught me." Little smile appeared on her face thinking about her mother's 'life lessons'.

"Crying and hating ocean won't bring my mum back."

''Don't get me wrong. I do cry sometimes. It helps to let it all out."

"But right now I need to be strong for my dad and myself of course."

She was right. Her little speech made him thing about her words. But still, you need a lot of strength to go and be near the place you lost your loved ones.

"You know, I'm kinda sad I ruined your 'special place'."

"I'm glad I'm sharing it with you." she poked his stomach.

"Your friend is hilarious ." Indigo switched topic not wanting him to feel sorry for her any longer.

"I hate that motherfucker." Luke grumpily said.

"But you have no reason to."

"He embarrassed me in front of you and your friends."

"It was cute."

"It was not cute to me."

Lukes mood changed and she could feel it by his movements. His arm was still around her back, but it didn't feel warm and welcoming anymore. It was like he was trying to prevent himself from doing something.

Maybe it was funny to her but he didn't feel that way. He didn't feel that way at all. His manhood was hurt. He didn't want to be little boy afraid to ask girl for a name. He didn't want her friends laughing at him. He didn't want that motherfucker to do that. He really loved Ashton, but he crossed the line with this. Even knowing it won't last for long, Luke was angry with Ashton and didn't want to hear a word about him. He wanted to forget the worst three minutes of his life and Indigo wasn't helping with it...

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I feel so unmotivated to post rn. I feel like no one is reading and that makes me sad. I really did work hard for this one. Maybe the chapters are not long but I spent so much time on this. I have carried my notebook everywhere with me for half a year. And the fact that English is not my native language. I know that there's still so much mistakes grammatically and with some parts of the story but I'm trying really hard.

So yeah, until next time

Irhana x.