Kiss in an elevator

Chapter 36

Lucy's POV

We walked out of the hall and i felt light and relived that i let everything out, i have one more stop, Brandon, and I'll get there soon.

We walked out of the hotel and entered Jay's car and he drove us home.

We walked into the building and rode the elevator to our apartment. The silence was tense and we were waiting for the other person to break it.

"When were you going to tell me you were raped?" i knew this was what the tension in his jaw was about.

"It's not important, it's in the past."

"How can you say that, he took some thing from you and you are just going to pass it off like it's not important?"

"It's important, god dammit, it is, i was raped by my boyfriend and i cried myself to sleep countless times, have you asked me how i got insomnia? That was how. I had nightmares countless times that i just couldn't bring myself to sleep anymore. I thought i loved him and i was supposed to give myself to him so i let it be but it was killing me inside.

It's in the past and i can't bring it back, that's why i want revenge, that's why i want revenge..." i couldn't hold in the tears any longer and i broke down.

Jay rushed to hold me in his arms and i tried fighting him off but he was persistent so i let him hold me.

I didn't want to remember but it's out now, everything about me is out now, i have nothing left to hide and it hurts that i took this long to let it out.

I cried and cried in his arms as he slowly sat us down on the couch.

"I'll give you whatever you need to make you happy; I'll give you the money to look for him, anything to make you feel better."

I cried after hearing his words and just held on to him tighter till my eyes feel heavy and i feel into a deep sleep.

*

I woke up in my bed alone and i got up, i checked the time and it was 9:00 pm, i slept for three hours and i wasn't going to sleep later.

I walked out of my room and found Jay in the sitting room watching TV.

"Hi." I walked up to him and sat down at the end of the couch away from him.

"I'm sorry for what happened today, i pushed you and i shouldn't have-"

"No you shouldn't have, it was uncalled for."

"I know and i'm sorry i was just surprised you didn't tell me about it-"

"Why? It's not your story to tell, I'll decide if i was going to tell you or not, it's not your choice."

"Don't start this now-"

"I'm not starting anything, i'm just saying, what you did was uncalled for."

"I know and that's why i'm apologizing-"

"Is that what you call an apology." I interrupted him again.

Our voices were getting loud and the sitting room was getting heated up and none of us want to step down.

He raked his hands through his hair in frustration and I crossed my legs to try to stop the heat building up within my legs from his actions.

He licked his lips, stood up and walked towards me. He knelt down in front of me and held my hand.

"I know i was wrong to push you but wasn't expecting that and i wanted to know all i could about you-"

"Well it has to be on my terms not yours, stop trying to give excuses-"