I made it home and went straight to my room. I immediately got undressed. I put on some high waisted black leggings with a black sports bra. I closed my door and got in bed. I was just thinking about this whole situation with Aiden and the police and started to cry. Why? Just.....why? Why me? He shouldn't have lied on anyone to the police but out of all his friends....he chose ME. My natural nails are pretty sharp so I used one to cut me wrist. It felt good so I made another cut. I thought was I was doing was wrong so I decided to stop. I placed two bandaids on my wrist.
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🦋Seh🦋
Y/n answer me 😭
BTW he's not laughing. I know this generation changed that into a laughing emoji😂
7 missed calls from 🦋Seh🦋
3 missed FaceTime calls from 🦋Seh🦋
I decided to call him back. He answered immediately.
"Why the fuck weren't you answering yo damn phone" he sounds pissed
"Jahseh I just woke up" I lied
"So you mean to tell me I just blew you the fuck up with texts, calls, and FaceTime calls and you didn't hear none of that shit?" He spat
"No. I was tired" I said
"Mhm. What the fuck were you doin?" He questioned suspiciously
"What are you talking about?" I asked
"What. The. Fuck. Were. You. Doing?" He said slowly
"Sleeping" I answered
"YO ASS WAS NOT FUCKIN SLEEPING" he shouted at me
"You can't tell me what I was doing" I rolled my eyes
"Answer my question. God damn" he snapped
"It's none of your business" I said with an attitude
"What the fuck are you talking about. You are my business" he spat
"No I'm not" I rolled my eyes
"See. This is why you're crazy. You always fuckin keeping shit to yoself and that's why yo mind process and yo meant all health are so fucked up" he growled. Why is he so mad?
"Would you like to sit in the waiting room with the others waiting for me to care" I rolled my eyes
"Quit bein a fuckin smart ass and tell me what the fuck you was doing" he snapped
"Why do you even care?" I questioned
"CUZ YOU CAN'T CONTROL YO MIND AND YO VOICES BE TELLIN YOU TO DO SOME STUPID SHIT. YOU ALREADY GOT YO ASS IN TROBLE WITH THE COPS" he shouted
"I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING AND YOU KNOW THAT" I shouted back
"Well how do I know that's the truth?" He questioned
"Are being serious right now?" I asked
"Obviously fuckin ly dumbass" he was getting angrier and angrier
"You seriously think I did something to get in trouble with the police?" I questioned
"I don't know.....maybe you did" he said. I scoffed and hung up the phone. I cried some more. Jahseh of all people. I never would've thought he would second guess my honesty. I hate everyone right now. I wanna die. I wanna disappear from this world. I hate it here. I hate it here so much.
