The girl who wore a suit to School.

Part 2

Emma's eyes widened in shock then she burst out laughing "OMG yes! I KNEW IT! Jake totally owes me 5 bucks" she rolled around in hysterics. "Wait you Knew!?!?" I asked incredulously "girl you were so obvious, I knew from the moment she walked into the cafeteria and sat on your precious table you were perfect for each other. You balance each other" she explained. My eyes widened in realisation you see Emma believes that love is about balance. Your soulmate balances all your extremes out and compliments your constants so someone who is your opposite but has the same beliefs as you, so this meant that she believed Ellerie was my soul mate.

"your not surprised that I like girls too?" I asked confused.
"I mean not really, I know you've liked guys in the past but she just.. Uh honestly I don't think I could've made a more perfect person for you if I tried, I think it had to be a girl because otherwise you would never have discovered that part of you until you were much older and unhappily married to a guy. " she explains.

I nod understanding what she means" but how do I tell her Em she's just so confident and I am confident in every part of my life except her. When I'm near her my mind just goes blank. "I whine feeling like a lovesick teenager though I suppose I am though I'm already 18 like Ellerie.
" well maybe you don't have to SAY anything"she mused.
"What like a love note or so thin is that not a bit third grade?"
"no I was thinking more like just straight up snogging her in an empty classroom, it's clear, confident and it makes sense." she says like that's a completely normal thing to do.

"what?!! You can't actually be serious Em that's completely insane I can't do that she'll think I'm a crazy person!" I say shocked.
"not if she likes you too which I know she does, you just both need a push to realise how perfect you are together" Emma states and somehow even though it's completely mental I agree because somewhere deep inside me I know she's right, unfortunately she's completely and utterly right.

So we begin to make a plan, my fear of coming out completely gone for now at least, there's still my parents to worry about but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. Every nerve in my body is frazzled and I'm so jumpy especially around bloody Ellerie Johnson who I'm furious at for making me feel like this. I can't actually believe I'm doing this.

The plan was to go to an empty classroom and invite Ellerie telling her we had some information about the gang she had tried to beat up, which was true we had recently found out they were dealing dugs in the school and a friend of Emma's had recently been hospitalised after almost ODing.
The day came and all week I had been an absolute bag of nerves, I couldn't eat, sleep or even pray, I was so distracted. It was a Tuesday lunchtime a bit of weird time for a love confession but we work with what we've got.
I walked to the classroom early faking a headache in math to get prepared, I enter the life changing room and hop up on the table a bad hapit I've picked up from El over the past few months. My legs swing nervously and I bite my nails as I wait, the pit of anxiety boiling inside of me. Trying to think of anything else but of course I'm not able to.

Suddenly she appears from nowhere "jesus Ellerie you scared the shit out of me!" I jumped almost toppling the table which gave me another heart attack "tut tut swearing and taking the Lords name in vain you are a bad influence Cassie Johnson." she smirked that annoying heart stopping smirk an I rolled my eyes at her idiocy. Why did I like her again? But I couldn't even fool myself despite my eye rolling time stopped in that moment I swear.

" you needed to talk to me about the gang though right?" she asked concerned
"yeah we've seen them distributing drugs to students and we need your help to stop them. We need evidence to prove it to the police though?" I explained. I was stalling I knew that but I couldn't help it.
"oh no that's awful of course I'll help you, we'll figure out a plan this weekend how about that, was there anything else it's just I'm late for English?" she asked and I knew this was the moment I couldn't stall any longer.
"um y.. yes act.. tually there is." I stuttered and I leant forward to where she was sitting cross-legged opposite me. She looked so beautiful in that moment with her rediculous hair and beautiful green eyes and that incredible suit I hated so much when we first met. And my lips pressed against hers and fireworks exploded and electricity surged and I could swear we could've lit up the world.

I pulled away breathing heavily, it was intense and incredible and immediately wanted it to do it again. Ellerie eyes were wide full of surprise and then she spoke and my heart stopped dead.

"Cassie, I'm not gay."

Hah you thought Ellerie was gay just because she wears a suit and has a non-binary friend. That's not how it works! What does this mean for Callerie?