As Long As You Care: A Ruel Novel

Don't Cry

Ruel

"You been on and on again, but this time I'm not listening. It's been minutes since we've spoken last. Already talking to my friends. You can't admit it that you lied. Yeah, I've been absent, but I've tried, but boys don't cry. If it's over then it's over doesn't have to be a TV drama, but boys don't cry." I can't believe it. I just ruined any chance I ever had of being with (your name). Before was nothing compared to this, I told her never to talk to me again, but she's the only person I ever want to talk to, the only one I really care about. I want to scream and cry at the same time. As I'm walking away from the party I look back and see (your name) has collapsed on the porch crying. I want to go help her; tell her everything will be okay. I turn around and run back to her but stop when I notice Xander is already out there with her, it barely took her minutes to replace me. All the sympathy I felt before is replaced by fury. I keep running towards them. I shove Xander away from her and without thinking I pull back my fist. It hits him right in the jaw. He's shouting at me, but I don't hear a thing. I just see (your name) with a shocked look on her face. I'm not going to forgive her, I should, I want to, but I can't. I just turn away from Xander and walk back to my car. "If it's over then it's over"

You

"Go Away Xander! I don't want to talk to you." "What's up with you? First you go to a party with me, then you kiss me, now you're telling me to go away!" I looked up at him ready to reply then I saw Ruel back in front of me. My heart fluttered, maybe he came back for me! Then I see him punch Xander. I am speechless. Part of me (the stupid part) thinks he's going to take my hand, lead me away, and we'll resolve all our fights, but he just turns around and walks away. Now I'm crying harder than before a lot of people have emerged from the party once they heard Xander shouting. I can't handle this, I run away. I know I'll be fine. I'll get over him and we'll never talk, and I'll forget all about it, but the thought doesn't make me stop crying.