"You & I - The beginning of Something New"

New Year, Not so New Me.

"Happy new Year to me" i sigh, FML! this is the worst way to start a new year. "Hey, i've been looking for you! what are you doing out here, you missed the countdown" "Yeah, im sorry, i needed some fresh air" i give him a small smile, he walks to me and lifts my face with his finger "You okay?" "Yeah im fine, just thinking" "Hmm...i dont believe you but" he leans down and kisses me, a slow kiss "Happy New Years Perrie" my heart  flutters, i stare into his perfect green eyes, i smile, he makes me feel good "Happy New Years Ian".

Its been a week since new years, i havent spoken or seen Zayn, i cant, i feel like i will relaps in my feelings for him, and i cant aford my father hurting him, Yes, my father is capable of many things, he has done  things that scare the shit out of me, and im the only one in the family that knows, not even my mother know, why? I have a few ideas. Today we have our first interview on the radio show, "So we are back with the lovely ladies of little mix! Tell me girls how did you like these holiday vacations?" "Oh we absolutly loved it, i just missed me girls" says Jesy "Yeah, it was nice to take a break from work" says lee "And spend time with the family and go home for a bit" says jade "Yes, i really enjoyed it!" i say "Soo you al went back home to spend christmas with the family?" "Yes!" "And what about new years? i heard a little rumor you we're qwuite the party animals!" "Haha well yeah, its new years!" "True Jess" "No, we went to the New Years eve gala and we had a blast, it was fun" "WEll im glad you girls enjoyed yourselves girls!...now talking about the gala, something happened on the red carpet that took everyone by a HUGE surprise! Well obvioulsly Jesy and Leigh you arrived with your Boyfriends-" "Yeah and i got there alone!" says jade in a funny accent, we all laugh "Jade where did you leave your date?!" "Nah, i wanted to have fun" "Haha. oh we know!, but Perrie you took us my surprise, now we have been wondering what happened, what is going on!! We saw you with a really goodlooking lad, and there was a kiss here and there!" "Yes! well you saw what you saw!" i say in an american accent "We all need to know, who is he?" "He's my,,,eh boyfriend" "WOW! now obviously we are confused, and i hope i can ask you this...now you where engaged with Zayn from One Direction not long ago, and now we see there is this new guy, we want to ask what happened" shit, i tense, im so glad that this is radio so not all the fans see my face, im thinking what to answer, but i have to be strong, i have to have courage "Well i think that what happened is personal, but what i will say is that....i think it was one of those things that happen, i mean, sometimes things arent meant to be, and these two people drift appart for many reasons, but you know, and i will admitt it was hard, but its part of it, but life goes on and i have moved on, and now i feel good and happy" "Well we thank you for being open about it, we know that you guys didnt spare many details of your relationship, but we are glad to see that you are happy, do you still stay in contact with him?" "Umm, we havent really talked since but i think its best for both of us, but i would be nice" "yes i think your right...now how do you think your fans and his fans will react to all of this?" "hmmm...good question, i dont really know, i hope well! hahaha, but i i hope they...you know, respect my descisions" "We hope so too, thanks for saying all that, its very honest of you, we wish you the best, really we do, and now the question we all want answer to....WHEN is this third album going to be out!? we need some new Little Mix material girls!....". 

That day we spent it in the studio and meeting for shows, i wanted to get out there again as soon as possible, ive been carrying a lot, i have mixed feelings for both Zayn and Ian, i cheeted on Ian and im keeping it from him, i spoke about my break up, now fans and taboids are going to go crazy, and then there's my dad, he worries me the most, and then he always had, with him being the hear of B316 itd pretty fucking scary to know what he can do. Im finally home, i lay in bed watching tv, when my phone rings "Hello?" "Hey" ..... "Hi, do you know what time it is?" "Yes i do, are you alone?" "If you mean not with Ian than yes" "Good" "You cant call me, its not right and dan-..." "Why not? i miss the sound of your voice" "No Zayn, im serious, you cant call me, we cant see eachother, its dangerous" "What? why?" "Zayn, please trust me, i need you to stop calling me, if we see eachother it has to be stricly in private, its very dangerous" "Perrie why do you keep saying its dangerous? what's going on?" "I cant tell you, but please just trust me, if....if...you really love me do this for me." i shut my eyes, waiting for his answer "I heard you on the radio today" "Dont change the subject" "We havent talked since then? we've done a little more that talking" "Zayn, no, please, answer, i need you to stop all this i cant be with you, i cant, i just cant! im with Ian, i need you away from me" he stays silent "Perrie, im not giving up on you, get that in your head." he hangs up, shit, i hols in my tears, why do i keep giving him up. 

"HELLO?" i yell,  "Over here!" i walk to the rink and i see him standing there, so perfect like always, i dont smile at him , i have to act like im still mad at him...well i am, a little. "So what are we doing here?" "Zayn we need to talk, this is very serious" "Okay, lets go sit down" we walk to the small benches and sit next to eachother "I need you to listed very carefully to what im going to say, and be very openminded, this is for your own good, please" "Perrie you are scarying me, what is going on" "Please?" "Yes, fine..okay" i take a deep breath "A few years ago, i found out something about my father, he um- he does things that you wouldnt imagine, i found some papers in his office and understood why we had what we had, why our family was rich, i always asked him what was his work and he never really answered, but when i found those files by accident i couldnt believe it" "Why?" "Zayn....my Father is the head of the Nations Top Secret Goverment Spy Organization...." he stays silent "Is that so bad? He's like a spy right?" "No Zayn, its not even close....he- he um...he physically tourtures people to get information for the goverment" he is shocked "I know that he has done this to a lot of people, i didnt really rap my head around it, until he killed a close friend, a really close friend of mine" "WHAT? why, who was he?" "Well, aparently he was working with someone that was planning an attack, i dont remember well why, but he was...James' brother" "Nick? i thought he died in an car accident" "Nope, that was my father, he made it look like that, thats what he does, he covers the deaths of people, some where inocent, but it was his job. When i found out i begged him not to do it anymore, that i would make it public if i had to, he checks up on anyone that i know, the reason why i dont skate anymore is because of him" "but what does skating have to do with that?" "I was chosen for the olympics, and if i went i would be exposed, people are after him, powerfull people, and i would just be a red light" "Perrie, you do realize that you are a a worldwide known artist?" "Yes i know, but i wanted to do both, he gave me a choice, he could do everything in his power to protect me being a singer ir skater, or new life, new face, new everything, but thats not what i wanted, i chose singing, it seemed like the better option, i am a public face, and me dying or disapeering would be caos" "Perrie, why are you telling me all this?" "Zayn, when you went to ask for my hand, he warned you, and now he has warened me, if i were ever to see you again you would be gone, and it doesnt matter how, he keeps his word" he puts his hand on my cheek and wipes my tear "Perrie, everything is going to be fine, i wont get hurt" "No! you dont get it! its too dangerous, Zayn we cant see eachother anymore, you have to let me go" "No, i wont, i cant, i wont let him have you" "Zayn he is my father, i am his" "Not him." "Zayn, i cant leave Ian" "What?" "I have feelings for him" his face goes pale "Perrie you dont love him, you never have..." "And what would you know about that" i spit back at him "You are doing this out of revenge for what happened with us" "No, you have no idea Zayn, he loves me, and-" "And you what?" he growls at me, i get up and look at him in the eye " I love him too, just like i love you, but I am not yours, or his, i am nobodys property, stop acting like im some kind of object between you and him, You dont get to say that, if you want me earn me like he has." i start to walk out but turn around "If you still have any respect for yourself, like i love you, stay away from me and stay alive."

SOOOOO whatcha think, i know its confusing but the big finale is coming soon, not that soon but soon, I will make book two for those of you that are liking this story so yeah, tell me what you think on the plot twist! x