Hikyuu!! Rarepair oneshots!!

His song

Kyoutani was sat at his desk, drawing a random tattoo design because why not, music deafening him. It was the same song he'd been listening to since he first heard it, since it reminded him of him. He hated it. He hated him and he hated this stupid song. Normally, he could just listen to the song and be over with it, be able to think, to breathe. 

But not this time.

He groaned, grip tightening around his pencil before slamming his hand down onto his desk in a fit of rage, pushing himself away from it and spinning slightly on his spinny chair. He grit his teeth, closing his eyes as he tried to do the breathing exercise his therapist had recommended he do when he felt like this, like punching a hole in his wall or kicking the floor, throwing himself out of the window even (which would be easy seeming his sister broke the glass and he is yet to replace it)

Kentarou then stood up, doing something he knew he'd regret later, the only person he ever sang or played his guitar for was his little sister- he didn't want to turn this into a venting mechanism, to ruin it for himself- but he needed to. He'd practised the song enough in his free time and knew the words off by heart- he knew he could do it. But it hurt, listening to the song, thinking about him.

He picked up his guitar, plugging it into his speaker and sitting down on his bed, he didn't need to tune it, it was already tuned for this song, something he'd been playing on repeat and hated with a burning passion. He strummed the guitar with the pick, the loud sound echoing in his room, regret starting to fill his being before he'd even started singing

"I was an island- before you came along" His voice didn't crack, didn't falter, he was too used to singing it, to the pain of it "Put your boat in my sand, hand in my hand- put your heart into my songs"

He continued to sing, pausing when he needed to, continuing to strum the bass, head hung low as he voice filled his room "I can't do this alone anymore- 'Cause I'm no good on my own anymore- What did I do to deserve this? What did you do to me? Baby, come back- You know I don't want to be free" Kyoutani's voice started to crack as tears continued to streat down his face, sobs slipping out between words and notes when he didn't notice. He hadn't felt like this in a while, hadn't felt it hurt so much he couldn't breathe, but he had to. He had to continue, needed to finish the song.

By the time he finished the song his hands were shaking, he probably messed up a few times but he didn't care. He finished. It was over- but his feelings weren't gone. They were still there. He was still there, but he didn't want him to be. He didn't even know why he felt this way, just one day he looked at him and the air left his lungs, the way his eyes lit up and the way his smile could brighten up even his darkest days- he couldn't not.

But he hated him. He didn't want to be around him and he made it obvious. He wanted to quit the volleyball team, maybe then he wouldn't hurt this much because of it, he could join the baseball team so he was still doing a sport- but no. He couldn't just leave the volleyball team, that was his team. Where he had to be, no matter how much he stuck out or how much he didn't want him there- he needed to be. For the team.

"Rou?"

His head snapped to the side as he looked at the small figure that had walked into his room, his old elephant plushie held in their arms, tears also rolling down their cheeks "Rou a-..are you okay?" They asked with a sniff, walking closer into his room and climbing onto the bed next to him.

Kentarou looked down at his little sister, not bothering to wipe away his tears, instead wiping away hers as he spoke, giving her a warm smile, one he'd given her on several occasions "What? Of course I'm okay, Na! You know how I get when I sing. What? Do you really think that something's wrong?" He asked with a grin, setting his bass down on the bed next to him as he turned to face her

She giggled, holding onto her elephant tighter as she looked up at him "I mean- m-maybe! We all get sad sometimes, right? Plus, you- you don't normally sound like that when you sing" She said with a pout, her cheeks reddening out of embarrassment

He rolled his eyes, playfully pinching her cheeks "Okay, okay- you caught me, Na. I'm just a little emotional because of him again, nothing that your big bro can't handle though!" He said with a nod, poking his stomach to hopefully distract her

"That mean one you told me about? Who's mean to you for no reason?! Grr, if I ever meet him I'll punch some sense into him for you, Rou! That'll teach him to not mess with *my* big bro!" She said with a huff, looking up at him with a content smile, squealing when he started poking her "H-HEY!! Rouuuu That's not fair! Stoppp!!" She yelled out as he fell onto her back in a fit of giggles, whacking his hand away with her elephant

"Ow, ow! Okay, finee! You win this time, Na" He said as he furrowed his eyebrows, a playful smirk rested on his face as he reached for his guitar "Hey, you want me to play you something new I learned, Na?" Kentarou asked as he turned the volume down on it slightly, not wanting to deafen his little sister more than he probably already did

'Na' clapped, shifting her position so that she was sat down more comfortably, holding her elephant close to her chest as she looked up at him with wide eyes and a wide smile "Yes! Play it to meeeee!!" She said with a giggle, smiling even brighter as she wanted him start to tune his guitar

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This isn't edited and honestly, I think it's really bad- but I felt like I needed to post so yuh, have this B) Not long at all and way too fucking short but eh, writer's block is writer's block. Hopefully, I should have something actual out soon!! Sorry that this makes no sense- it was more of a vent :)

- Sam