The beginning (Mortal AU Valdangelo)

Getting use to this

Nico's POV (1 year later)

I was on the plane again, with mamma and Bianca, we were chatting, it was fun. Later, the captain said the problem with the control, but to remain calm. Then the other plane started to approach, we were getting even more worried, but again, the captain told us to remain calm, that the plane would move. Still, we wore out life jackets if something happened. "Even though it won't be necessary" the captain said "We always need to be prepared. Is ok passengers, the plane will move."

But it didn't, we crashed, I saw mamma and Bianca flying backwards, and me stuck again, I couldn't go with them. Then, all my surroundings were black and in front of me stood mamma and Bianca. "You could be with us right now y'know? But you were selfish, you wanted to live, you left us to die." Bianca spat. "No! I didn't want to stay! I wanted to go with you!" I shouted, "Oh please. Don't give me that lie, you didn't care if we died or not, you were worried about yourself." Mamma said, angrily "I'm glad I'm dead now, because I wouldn't want to be any second longer with you" Those words hurted me, even though I already dream this a thousand times. It still hurt like it was the first time they told me that, so I cried. I cried and cried until I saw them vanish. Then I saw everything black.

I woke up screaming, again. Marie came running to my room, she already knew what to do. She hugged me and told me sweet nothings for a few minutes, then got up to get a glass of water. For some reason that always seemed to calm me down, from the nightmares. Since my mother's and sister's death.

'I'm glad I'm dead because I wouldn't want to be any second longer with you' 'You wanted to live, you left us to die' I kept hearing them, saying how selfish I am to be alive while they were dead. I know they wouldn't say that but still, I believed it. I'm selfish, I didn't die with them, I survived.

Marie came back with the glass of water, "Here you go dear" she said and handed to me, I drank it slowly, "Was it the same dream again?" I nodded, months after I had the nightmare I decided to open up, and stop pushing people away. I'm getting comfortable here, Hazel is really sweet, Marie too. They never pressured me, they knew I was still sad. That I always cried myself to sleep, only to wake up from a nightmare making me cry again.

"Is ok Nico," Marie said, "You know Bianca and your mom would never think that, you were their whole world, they loved you. Even if they're gone now, they still live in your heart only if you keep remembering them, and not of the nightmares you have, but from the times you spent together"
I hugged her, "Thank you Marie, for everything" she hugged back, "Anytime"

Leo's POV (still 1 year later)

"I should have said it when I had the chance" I thought. That thought started playing a part now in my daily routine, I shouldn't let them go to that plane. I knew something bad was gonna happen, maybe that we would never see them again. It did, but not the way I expected or wanted.

Everyday I gave myself hope, that it was a nightmare, that when I get to class I would see my Neeks, waiting for me on his seat in the classroom. But every time I opened the door and looked at Nico's usual seat, my face darkened, because he wasn't there. "Maybe he's late," I used to think, and my face brightened again. Then I saw my classmates' and teacher's expressions, they were filled with pity and sorrow. And just like that, my hope crashed, I knew it wasn't a nightmare that it really happened, that my only friend, my best friend, my Nico, was gone.

After school I waited for Aunt Maria's car with her, Bianca, mamá and Nico in it because Nico didn't come to school today, only to see mamá walking my way with a sad yet still filled with love look in her eyes, and again, my hope, the little I still had, crashed one more time.

Since last week, I finally accepted it, I accepted the fact that my best friend was gone, and I was alone again. I would go to class, wearing that fake grin everyone seemed to believe, I make my jokes trying to stay away from the sadness that somehow, at the end of the day, would always come back, each day sadder than before.

Mamá knew I faked everything, from that small smile to loud laughter, it was all fake because my happiness was with Nico, along with Bianca and Aunt Maria.

I still had my mamá, and I was grateful for that, but she changed too, I barely see her anymore, working harder and longer every day. When I see her, she always looks exhausted and with sad eyes, their death affected her too. We had each other of course. but we didn't know how to do it. We were never good with people, it wasn't our way. It was always playing, working with machines and laughing together. Fun moments, there were never sad, emotional moments. We never liked those because we didn't know what to do then. Sure, there were the usual "I love you"s and "I missed you" and that we were grateful to have each other. But it was never about other people. It was always just us, so when we met them, it was like a blessing, a new family, and now that family is gone, also a part of yourself.

But after a year, you get used to it, you get used to live with the pain and sadness because it will always stay there.

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Hey guys! I hope you like this chapter and also if you get confused with all the changes of year, in this chapter, Nico and Leo are 11. Just wanted to make that clear. Thanks for reading! Bye!

-Susy_Valdez21 (1048 words)