Harry/Hayley [Larry,Zarry,Narry] (boyxboy)

chapter 25- Louis x Zayn

Hayley/Harry's POV

After Louis kissed the top of my hand, I got tensed up.. like a lot.. What if he just kiss kiss me? or try to touch me in appropriate places.. Jesusss.. What-the-f.ck-gonna happen-then??!!!

I was so close to death..I could feel it already.. Being a girl and fooling everyone in the process was a bad thing already.. But being someone's kinda girlfriend, giving hope, making him wait for nothing.. oh God.. I am so dead..

When he learned that I am a boy, he would be so mad.. He loved Hayley, but hated Harry.. He would be worse than Zayn.. He would yell at me, beat me up, cracked each of my bones, there would be bruises and broken bones all over my body.. and they would take me to the hospital and I would stay there for a long time.. Right?

Focus on now Harry.. Focus on now!.. What u gonna do? I took my hand from Louis's hand slowly and moved a little back.. He got the message.. Thank God! He started to eat the breakfast and smiled at me, started to talk cheerfully.  

I started to eat as well. It was nice to spend time with Louis.. I didn't wanna admit it to even myself but I liked it. I liked spending time with him.. when he didn't try to do boyfriend stuffs.. When he did some things like that, I got tensed up, afraid to be caught.. hell a lot...

Now, he was typical Louis, he was normal, not flirting anymore, just eating his breakfast innocently.. So I got relaxed. We talked and he made me laugh a little. That was so nice. I was glad that he surprised me in the early hours of the day.. I enjoyed this a lot.. I thought..If he didn't show up on my doorstep, I would probably still sleeping and that would be waste of time..

Then I saw Louis looking blankly to the space, he became so silent.. so quite all of a sudden.. He seemed so sad.. What happened to him? Was it because I didn't want to be lovey dovey a little while ago? No.. There was something else.. It was sad to see him like that. I got used to see him cheerful and talkative all the time.. I didn't like this sad-looking Louis..

"What is it? Why are you so quite?" I said. "I was thinking that I will be gone almost half an hour later and I couldn't see you whole day..That sucks. I wanna have more time with you" Louis said. My eyes went wide.. I knew that he liked me.. I mean he liked Hayley.. And that was predictable his saying those things actually.. but.. still.. it shocked me to 'hear' it from 'Louis'.. I blushed. I didn't know what to say to that.. and murmured a "thanks Lou" with a smile..

I was ashamed at the same time, because I was thinking quite the opposite.. thinking that he will be gone and I will be at home.. alone.. soon.., no more flirting and I could be relaxed.. Don't get me wrong, I have fun with Louis, I liked being with him.. but.. this is getting too real.. That scared me hell a lot..

I should just stay away from him.. But I couldn't do that, I couldn't stand him being sad either.. I actually didn't know what-the-f.ck-I-am-doing anymore.... Kinda like the lad, didn't wanna upset him.. But he loved a girl named Hayley, not me.. This game became more dangerous.. He would get hurt, he would be more upset at the end when he learned the truth, if Hayley wouldn't let him go soon.. 

While I was thinking those, "Maybe I shouldn't go to the practice and had more time with you. It is a weekend, I don't have to go anyway.. What do you say?" Louis said. I was shocked. "Isn't the match on Monday so important to you?" I said.

Of course it was,and I already knew it. Football was the most important thing in his life and now.. he was ready to throw it away just for what? Hayley? Hayley didn't even exist.. I felt like shiiittttttt.... This was too much.. He loved Hayley too much.. I felt like his love for Hayley crushing Harry.. This was a heavy burden.. I felt..guilty..again..