"A-anong ginagawa mo dito?"tanong ko sakanya
"Ako ang dapat ang tatanong niyan sayo.Kapatid ko ang nakalibing dito"diriktang sagot niya napatango nalang ako sa hiya,tama nga naman kapatid niya ang nakalibing.
"Biro lang,alam ko kung bakit ka nandito"bakit ba ko nandito? dahil ba sa guilt?sakit?
"A-ah sige mauna nako sayo,baka may mahalaga kang ibabahagi sakaniya"palusot ko.Ayokong nakikita niya kong nasasaktan,baka maulit naman ang nangyari nadati.
"Hindi naman si Leo ang pinunta ko dito"
"H-ha?"
"Ikaw,ikaw ang pinunta ko rito "
"B-bakit?"kinakabahan nanaman ako,why Im so weak?bat ba'ko ganto?maliit na bagay kinakabahn,iniiyakan,nasasaktan.
"I want to tell you something-- something important"
Mas kinakabahan ako sa sinabi niya na parang nabubuhayan din na pano kung buhay talaga si Leo?prank lang nila diba.
"Buhay si Leo?prank niyo lang d-diba"I tried to smile
"Amara,pranking someone about death? is not a good joke"natahimik ako
"He died in peace Amara"
"E-eh a-no ang sa-sa-abihin mo?"ito naman ang mga luha ko nagpaparamdam
"The truth behind his lies."
"Ano?"
"Let just say,without him-- we dont know nor meet each other"
"Pardon?"
"Kung hindi dahil sakaniya,di kita nakilala-- di mo din ako nakilala.He's the one who force me to help you that rainy day."
" I can't understand you"there's lot of question building in my mind
"He always push me to play with you everyday and comfort you when you're sad"
My tongue-tied I dont know what to say nor to react.
"He keep hiding hiself and pushing me to you. At first, I dont want to be attached to you but because of him I ate my words." So it's mean he's always there too.
"He always cared for you and loved you..from afar"
"B-but why ?he did not show up-- or introduce his self to me?"sa wakas nagkalakas ako ng loob
"Because he is afraid.One time he planned to talk to you but that day he saw us-- he saw us hugging.He dont know that Im comforting you, dahil inaaway ka ng mga classmate mo. Because of it-- he distance his self from me, nilagyan niya ng mataas na pader sa pagitan namin,I asked him whats wrong?may nagawa ba kong mali?nasaktan ko ba siya?. Leo answered me a sweet genuine smile 'Im ok bro,Im just having a hard time because of Ellaine' our younger sister who died-- But I know what the reason is-- He likes you"bat ganun? nasasaktan ako para kay Leo?parang ako ang reason kung bakit nararansan niya ang mga masasakit na bagay.
"Now I.. understand na and I know kung sino ang-- nagbibigay sa'kin palagi ng stick-o,and I thought its you? kaya pala kapag tinatanong kita pero parang di mo alam.Kasi siya pala yung nagbibigay at nag-iiwan sa labas ng binatana ng kwarto ko.tama ba?"he smiled
"Because of it,I distance myself to you too.Alam kong napapansin mo yun, at nasasaktan din ako tuwing gingawa ko ang mga bagay na yun.But the thing who hurt me the most, is leaving you without any farewell."he continue sharing it with me with tears flowing from his eyes, Its my first time seeing him cry.
"Asher"he looked at me and smile bitterly
"I like you too and I know nakikita niya din yun.Even though I want to stop my feelings wala akong magawa at ganun din siya.Yun nga nung nailibing si Ellaine,our parents planned to go to manila, tandang tanda ko pa nung sinabihan niya akong magpaalam sayo,pero di ko sinunod.Two days before our flight,narinig ko siyang humiling sa mga bituwin 'If kuya will say goodbye to Cessair ibig sabihin guina higugma niya ito,yan ang sign na hinihingi ko' so I choose not to.At kala ko pag yun ang ginawa ko magpapakita na siya sayo but Im wrong." parang gumuho ang mundo ko nang nalaman ko to
"Nagpumilit siyang magbakasyon nun because he miss you 'we- missed you' pero di ako sumama dahil alam kong masasaktan ko lang din naman siya pati yung sarili ko.Nung nakapag bakasyon siya ,agad din siyang umuwi, sabi niya' I surrender ,I let her go' di ko naintindihan yun nang una pero ngayon naintindihan ko na
"We both give ways to each other that lead unforgettable memory to you"
"No, hindi lang naman ako diba? nasaktan din naman kayo"parang di niya narinig ang sinabi ko at nagpatuloy lang sapagsasalita
"I hate myself as we grow up having a wall between us.Dahil bakit hindi ko siya pinapakilala din sayo? Im being selfish back then.I regret everything.One day I saw him running papunta sa attic hinahalughog niya ang mga gamit dun,may hinanap siya sa mga kahon.I saw him holding a picture frame and its you ,ikaw ang nasa picture frame the young Amara"
"And that day he talked and share it to me,dun ko lang ulit nakita ang mga ngiting matagal niya ng itinago."
"We stalk you in social media,I mean gathering information ika niya. He ask me if can he use my name 'Asher' at magpakilala siya as me to you,I love my twin thats why I Iet him without thinking na baka masaktan ka sa huli pag nalaman mo"Im hurt but know I understand him
"Hanggang sa nangyari ang di namin inaasahan,na malaman mo ang totoo hanggang sa pati kay Xavier.He donate his eyes because it shows his love for you.But dont get me wrong ha, I dont like you anymore baka you will distance yourself from me too"
"Im sorry Amara,for everything.Kahit si Leo nalang patawarin mo ok lang sa'kin ,kahit sa'kin kanalang magalit" yumuko siya and I heard his voice cracked and sobbed again
Nilapitan ko siya at niyakap,thats the only thing I know .Parang di parin mag sink in sa'kin ang lahat ng mag sinabi niya
"I hope too that-- you will listen to Xavier's side and lies if theres lies.I just want to fix the damage ,I want to help you heal the scars we've do.Not just me pala,Xavier is willing to help you too-- sana your willing din na tulungan ka namin"
"I'll think about it,but for now I want to rest Asher-- Im tired"
Asher's Pov
Pagkatapos niyang sabihin iyon she collapsed in my arms,I carry her and shouted for help buti nalang may aleng lumapit at sabi niya babantayan niya daw at kunin ko ang kotse,nung una nagdadalawang isip ako pero yun lang ang alam kong paraan, I lost my twin brother and I dont want to lost her.
I run fast as I can until I reached my car,I start the engine and stomp the accelator .Pagkabalik ko sa pwesto kanina nila Amara agad ko siyang binuhat at inisakay sa kotse at nagpasalamat sa ale ,Im getting nervous what if?destiny will repeat the accident? I prayed in my mind na sana hindi lang mangyari yun,buti nalang malapit ang ospital .
"Tulong!please nurse!"I shouted at buti nalang agad nilang inilabas ang stretcher at hiniga si Amara namumutla na siya.
DIAAAAALLLLIINNNNGGGG
'[Hello?]"
"Alex,nasa ospital kami ngayon "
"[Pardon?]"
"Nahimatay si Amara"
"{A-ano?!.Sige hintayin mo ko jan,wag mo siyang iwanan please]"
END CALL
Leo will get mad at me,be strong Amara.
10-01-20
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Grievous Love:The Precious Eyes(editing)
Teen FictionShe is Amara Cessair Montefalco, understanding, soft hearted, strong and combative. Before-- she lives peacefully in the bottom side of the Country when she decide to go to the upper side of the Philippines called Luzon where her Family lives, she...
